turn on the lights
Friday, February 27, 2009
UGH.i dont know. i just wanted to rant for hours... i need people who'll listen to me. i want to ring up everyone close to my heart and rant and rant and rant and..well, you get the idea.it's so freaking gloomy. the vibes is so freaking ominous. i so freaking hate it. does it freaking show? ugh. freaking life.how would you not hate someone who doesnt even appreciate everything that you're doing, who regards you as insignificant and unlucky, who doesnt even support you, and all in all, doesnt seem to love you?how could you not hate that someone?...her smiles dont mean that her eyes dont cry; she comes off strong but that doesnt mean that there's nothing wrong...yinyang.the balance of life.i fully believed in it. really. swear.now, im trying to do my best to look for it.where is yinyang?or, more specifically, where is "yang"?whatever happened to newton's "for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction"?defying the laws of physics... if were talking about that then i wish i could do something about mind control or what.or maybe... what i want is an escape.a good escape from reality.a good adventure, so as to say....though my soul may set in darkness it will rise in perfect light; i have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night...i am strong.always been. always will be.what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. i truly believe in that. my soul may get scarred and damaged and cracked but it will not be destroyed.no, it wont be.it's like a scar tissue. stronger, more resilient... sensitive, yes. but stronger.i have lots more to say. but i prefer not to. not here. what i want right now is to cry my heart out. but i dont know why i cant.the tears wont flow. haha... how ironic...btw, to anyone who will read this, im not an emo.emotional, yes.an emo, no.far from it, actually. i look at the world through multicolored glasses. but right now, the color of my glasses could actually be quite dark...can anyone turn on the lights, please?*sigh*just dont mind this entry. im ranting. if you havent noticed that yet.i need to talk to someone. anyone. ugh.never mind.turn on the lightsit's getting darkerthe shadows are coming outreaching for my sheltered hearttendril fingers extendingturn on the lightsthe darkness is scaryeven a sliver of dawna tiny pinpoint of lighta small sense of hopeof a bright new morningof a sunrise filled with gladnessturn on the lightsobscurity is shroudingeverything in sightdisappearingturn on the lights[what the. ano nanaman yang biglang tnype kong tula-tulaan jan.]anyway, till here.
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