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real face

Saturday, March 31, 2007

-- currently listening to "Real Face" by KAT-TUN

hmm,,
what you told me is quite.. er.. convincing..
how can we be close if i don't want us to be close in the first place?
yep, point taken.
but, how about this one...
how can i not want us to be close IF you keep on acting like YOU don't want us to be close?
is my point taken?
i don't think so.
okay, maybe my basis for comparison is quite limited... as i have not yet faced a variety of people, unlike you..
but, one thing's i'm sure of...
i know that i won't do something that would ruin me...
i won't do something that would cause my downfall...
i have a brain and i know how to use it..
i have a heart and i know how to act on it..
and i know that the heart and brain should work together for the benefit of the owner...
i'm not stupid.
i know i'm not.
yes, i'm still young...
yes, i'm still dependent...
but how could i grow and be independent if you keep on chaining me to that stupid wall that you call "protection"???
i'm not saying that i want you not to mind me...
i'm not even saying that i want you not to protect and care for me..
what i'm saying..
and asking...
is for you to know that i should be able to learn how to be myself..
that i should be able to stand up for myself..
that i should be able to do things accordign to myself and for myself...
i'm not saying that i want to take care of my life ALONE...
i just want to learn how to take care of myself ALONE...
because, there will come a time when i will have to face the real world alone..
there would come a time when i have to stand up for myself without anyone to lean to...
a time when i would travel the paths of life without anyone to support me..
that time will come.
you know that, right?
you just mentioned it a while ago...
innocence is bliss...
but not for too long.
one should be aware of the dangers in order for that person to know how to avoid those dangers...
one should be aware of the nature of the traps for that person to know how to act when he/she encounters the said traps...
how are you going to prevent a certain disease if you don't know its nature?
how are you going to avoid a poisonous plant if you don't know about its poison?
awareness is a friend that would protect...
and that's what i believe in.

-- currently listening to "yuragu koto nai ai"... 1stOP of getbackers...

hmm...
may napanood ako..
basta, merong mgssuicide...
sbi nung lalaking mgssuicide...
he's depressed...
the world's turning its back on him...
there's nothing more left for him to continue living...
tsk..
stupid guy...
he said that the world is cruel...
hell yeah!
the world is REALLY cruel...
and now, if the world is cruel, SO WHAT?
is that reason to die?
is that a reason to succumb to the cruelty of the world?
tsk...
the world is cruel but that doesn't mean that you have to die...
because if that is what's supposed to happen, then the world would lose all of its inhabitants...
so, what are you planning to do? suicide?
tsk...
that's like saying to the "cruel world" that you're already surrendering yourself...
that's as simple as giving in to a fight...
one word: COWARD.
if you really hate this world, then why don't you fight it?
if you really want to take revenge upon this world, then why are you surrendering?
this world won't give you that kind of challenge unless you're worth it...
and by surrendering, you're simply showing that you are UNWORTHY of it...
face the challenges of this world...
face it and bear with it...
and once you make it through...
you will be able to say that you win the fight...
suicide is backing off...
and do you really want to back off from a fight when your opponent is the one that you hate the most?
illogical...
some says that suicide would mean freedom from all of the sadness in the world...
i say, death is not the key to freedom.
one is simply running away like a cowardly mouse if one chooses death...
dying is easy...
you simply slash your wrist and watch your blood drips out of you...
the pain would be unbelievable, yes... but it won't take too long until you take your last breath..
but..
would doing that satisfy you?
would doing that free you?
i don't think so.
living is harder...
it's like a daily fight...
and the pain and grief that you feel would last for long..
but, after you've done all what you're supposed to do..
after you've fulfilled what you want to do,...
when you're lying on your deathbed...
you can say that you are satisfied...
maybe, not THAT satisfied...
but, at least, you can smile and say that you've fought hard with the cruel world..
maybe, for you, you did not win because you're dying and the world is still alive...
but...
in reality, you have won the fight..
because you did not backoff...
you fought hard...
and you did not lose hope..
and that is something, at least.

-- currently listening to "hesitate" by akanishi jin

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saccharine spice

[+] full-time UP Diliman BS Chemical Engineering student
[+] 50% Filipina (by citizenship) 50% Chinese (by blood)
[+] true-blue argentine kiddo
[+] bookworm
[+] mangaddicted
[+] trilingual (filipino, english, spanish)
[+] aspiring writer
[+] appreciates learning and beauty
[+] dreamer
[+] traveller at heart
[+] linguist wanna-be (at least 5 languages!)
[+] looks at the world through multicolored glasses

esteemed authors

in order as dictated by my memory

+ neil gaiman
+ michael crichton
+ sidney sheldon
+ stephen king
+ jeffery deaver
+ caleb carr
+ kathy reisch
+ christopher pike
+ chuck palahniuk
+ clive staples lewis
+ john katzenbach
+ john ronald reuel tolkien
+ anne rice
+ peter beere
+ heather graham
+ richie tankersley cusick
+ ian fleming
+ chris wooding
+ patricia cornwell
+ mary higgins clark
+ stephen coonts
+ vladimir nabokov
+ agatha christie
+ robert lawrence stine
+ dean koontz
+ john grisham
+ jonathan kellerman
+ paulo coehlo
+ roald dahl
+ lewis carroll
+ sir james matthew barrie
+ frank baum
+ mark twain
+ michael connelly
+ arthur conan doyle
+ edgar allan poe
+ piers anthony
+ clive barker
+ tamora pierce
+ mary wollstonecraft shelley
+ bram stoker
+ dan brown
+ edith wharton
+ sue grafton
+ william blatty

anime/manga

as far as i can recall, these are the animes/mangas that i've read and/or watched. currently still incomplete. blame my memory.

[] one piece
[] battle royale
[] get backers
[] death note
[] bleach
[] ouran highschool host club
[] gatekeepers
[] blood +
[] black cat
[] fushigi yuugi
[] ayashi no ceres
[] full metal panic
[] full metal alchemist
[] fruits basket
[] flame of recca
[] spiral
[] shuffle!
[] slamdunk
[] tactics
[] fate stay night
[] ultra maniac
[] tsubasa chronicle
[] evangelion
[] elfen lied
[] escaflowne
[] ghost hunt
[] elemental gelade
[] detective conan
[] darker than black
[] DNangel
[] gakuen alice
[] gakuen heaven
[] chobits
[] gundam seed/wing/destiny
[] gunslinger girl
[] dot hack SIGN
[] dot hack legend of the twilight
[] harukanaru toki no naka de
[] hayate no gotoku
[] hunter x hunter
[] inuyasha
[] kyou kara maou
[] hana yori dango
[] hanazakari no kimitachi e
[] zombie-loan
[] vampire knight
[] loveless
[] yuyu hakusho
[] you're under arrest
[] yami no matsuei
[] wolf's rain
[] xxxholic
[] weiss kreuz
[] naruto
[] prince of tennis
[] rosario + vampire
[] saiyuki
[] pretear
[] shaman king
[] special A
[] B.O.D.Y.
[] koukou debut
[] kimi wa petto
[] boku ni natta watashi
[] codebreaker
[] lost+brain
[] doubt
[] eternal sabbath
[] luck stealer
[] number
[] liar game
[] kyou koi wo hajimemasu
[] deadman wonderland
[] mirai nikki [future diary]
[] saboten no himitsu
[] koizora
[] majin tantei nougami neuro
[] 07ghost
[] camelot garden
[] blank slate
[] beast master
[] pandora hearts
[] [switch]
[] kuroshitsuji
[] d.gray-man
[] wild ones
[] trinity blood

nexus

propphi anne fernando