-- currently trying to look for lyrics of "hesitate" but i just can't find ANY... the lyrics that i can find were all in kanji and hiragana... tsk... i can't find any romaji version... aww...
hmm... la lan... daan lan ulit..
xado nga ata tlga acong ngeenjoy s pgpopost ng entries s blog at nkakailang posts aco everyday a.. hehehe...
hmm... akanishi jin likes sugimoto aya...?? but...
nevermind...
[[[ warning: ramblings would follow... ]]]
this won't make any sense...
i'm sure of that...
but, i don't care.
it's not as if i'm writing of all of this just to make sense, eh...
as i've warned... ramblings would follow...
hai... i saw a nice video a while ago...
those tiny droplets of rain captured in a single moment of downpour...
just for about 3 minutes...
but, it was totally cool...
nee.. i'm being sappy...
but then, who cares? =D
some people dislike rain...
they say that the rain makes them feel bad...
they say that they can associate rain with death and sadness...
i just don't get it.
the rain comes from the heavens, right?
there is nothing about death and sadness in it...
i can barely see anything even REMOTELY associated with death or sadness in it..
there are only those tiny droplets plummeting from the skies...
and there is nothing to feel bad about that...
me...
when i die...
i want it to be on a rainy day...
don't take me wrong...
i DON'T want a storm...
i just want a downpour...
rain...
sounds crazy?
I DON'T THINK SO.
when it rains, it is so peaceful...
and it feels as if the rain would mourn, too...
then, my soul wouldn't be alone in crying, ne?
sometimes...
i get this feeling in my heart that i would die in the rain...
just a feeling.
just, maybe...
(maybe, this is why some people associate the rain with death and sadness...)
let's face the facts: everyone is afraid to die.
maybe, not for themselves...
but for leaving the people that they love..
in any way, people are afraid to die...
but..
one should NOT hide when faced with fear...
one should embrace it...
and that's what makes everything different...
dying is easy...
it's what you're going to leave here that makes it so difficult...
it's those things that you can't do anymore that makes it hard...
it's the uncertainty that makes it so scary...
right?
and when you die...
you die alone...
there might be people beside you...
your family and friends...
holding your hand...
telling you how much they love and care for you...
begging you not to depart...
but...
bottomline is you'll be leaving all alone...
ALONE.
and that's scary...
and that's another reason why i want it to rain when i die...
maybe my deathbed would be surrounded by the people i love...
or maybe not...
neither way...
the rain would be there...
i want it to be there...
i want it to pour...
so that... in a way...
i would feel that i won't be leaving alone...
i'm rambling...
i know it and i don't care...
hey, anyone who's reading this... don't get me wrong..
i'm not suicidal or anything.. i'm not even depressed...
yep, i may be sad... but that's just normal... heh heh...
i'm simply rambling... but i'm serious with everything...
-- currently listening to "love so sweet" by arashi
JA NE!
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