UGH. i dont know. i just wanted to rant for hours... i need people who'll listen to me. i want to ring up everyone close to my heart and rant and rant and rant and.. well, you get the idea. it's so freaking gloomy. the vibes is so freaking ominous. i so freaking hate it. does it freaking show? ugh. freaking life. how would you not hate someone who doesnt even appreciate everything that you're doing, who regards you as insignificant and unlucky, who doesnt even support you, and all in all, doesnt seem to love you? how could you not hate that someone?
...her smiles dont mean that her eyes dont cry; she comes off strong but that doesnt mean that there's nothing wrong...
yinyang. the balance of life. i fully believed in it. really. swear. now, im trying to do my best to look for it. where is yinyang? or, more specifically, where is "yang"? whatever happened to newton's "for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction"? defying the laws of physics... if were talking about that then i wish i could do something about mind control or what. or maybe... what i want is an escape. a good escape from reality. a good adventure, so as to say.
...though my soul may set in darkness it will rise in perfect light; i have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night...
i am strong. always been. always will be. what doesnt kill you makes you stronger. i truly believe in that. my soul may get scarred and damaged and cracked but it will not be destroyed. no, it wont be. it's like a scar tissue. stronger, more resilient... sensitive, yes. but stronger.
i have lots more to say. but i prefer not to. not here. what i want right now is to cry my heart out. but i dont know why i cant. the tears wont flow. haha... how ironic... btw, to anyone who will read this, im not an emo. emotional, yes. an emo, no. far from it, actually. i look at the world through multicolored glasses. but right now, the color of my glasses could actually be quite dark... can anyone turn on the lights, please? *sigh*
just dont mind this entry. im ranting. if you havent noticed that yet. i need to talk to someone. anyone. ugh. never mind.
turn on the lights it's getting darker the shadows are coming out reaching for my sheltered heart tendril fingers extending turn on the lights the darkness is scary even a sliver of dawn a tiny pinpoint of light a small sense of hope of a bright new morning of a sunrise filled with gladness turn on the lights obscurity is shrouding everything in sight disappearing turn on the lights [what the. ano nanaman yang biglang tnype kong tula-tulaan jan.]
anyway, till here.
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what's in a name DAW
[[i got this from angelique's site. it seemed cool to try it.]]
YOUR REAL NAME Kimberly Trix Boñon Lee
WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name) Araojo Lim (nice one! ang cool ng dating.)
STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, LAST 2 letters of your first name) LEELY (haha! natawa ako dun aa..)
SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) Boñon Mandaluyong (er...ansagwa aa..)
SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Blue Rootbeer (what the... haha.)
FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 3 letters of your last name) Kilee (bakit ba laging three letters ng last name kinukuha? kanina pa aa.. eh THREE LETTERS LANG NMAN TLGA LAST NAME KO.)
YOUR RAPPA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Kimizzle (pa-cute ang effect nito.)
YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Cindy (parang witch aa.)
YOUR PORN STAR NAME: (your first pet, and the street you grew up on) Cindy Gonzaga (haha... pang-porn ba yan? weh,,,)
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scream
Sunday, February 22, 2009
today is sunday. this coming tuesday will be our final periodical exams. we've got lots of projects to make, notes to take... and today, i just got home at around 8pm. wondering why? im wondering as well... haha. it was supposed to be a project-making session with my journmates. meet up at 9am, record our radio broadcasting project, study something, go home. that was the supposed schedule for today. take note: SUPPOSED. i, for one, woke up at 8:30. hence, i knew from the start that i would be a bit late. and then, everything started to go downhill when i rang up my other journmates to find out that only angelo would be able to get on the meeting place on time. i mean, the others were still sleeping soundly. based from their parents' testimonies. haha. and off we went to our meeting place: 7eleven near sanfelipe. waiting... waiting... waiting for bryan and james... waiting... and you get the idea. and off we went to mico's place, deciding that we'll just going to phone those two later on. only to find out that those two were already waiting for us at mico's place... wth.. haha. and... only to find out that we have no cassette player. no microphone either. and so we had no choice but to wait for mico's neighbor to come home at around 4 in the afternoon. we were left with more than five hours of time to spare. and what were we supposed to do with those more than five hours?? MOVIE MARATHON. first movie: One Missed Call, japanese version. quite a random movie.. not so creepy.. quite confusing... the ending was crafted quite badly... second movie: Scream this one really turned our adrenaline switches ON. Scream was a movie that really makes the viewers SCREAM. lol. i was actually trying to solve the calculus problems before the movie started.. then i ended up solving nothing more. wahaha.. well, im still happy that i managed to solve several problems during the One Missed Call movie viewing time. wahaha... anyway, regarding the movie, the script was really good. the irony of it all was really entertaining. and the fact that the movie was created way back made it all the better... the script of the movie was original. 'twas good. kudos to the screenplay writers and the director! good work! ah well... in the end, we ended up doing nothing. we had fun and everything though. at around 7pm, we were trying to create our scripts for our radio broadcasting project. louie was really good. he can act out a drunk man, a flirty wife, an annoying kid, a weird granny, and even a creepy dog... cool talent you got there louie! anyway, one last week and there'll be nothing more to worry about! yay! am excited... till here!
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icons for everyone
Saturday, February 14, 2009
done with my mapeh project. cooool. loved the concept. i just dont know if i loved how i portrayed my concept. LOL. i mean, im quite gifted in the field of conceiving new ideas and stuff like that. im just not that gifted in the field of arts... with respect to drawing and sketching, im all good. but throw in some colors and my whole world tumbles upside down. haha. sooo.. lemme see..
let me congratulate AURA KEZIAH SORIANO for being one of this year's OBLATION SCHOLARS. congrats partner aura! then, CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL UPCAT PASSERS. GO FIGHTING MAROONS.
SPECIAL A. the wonderful manga im currently obssessing over. soooo damned cool. if takishima kei were real... HAHA. anyway, since i dont have anything to say right now, let me just share some of the new icons that ive got for my icon collection.
i soooo love icons. (waaaaay good to state the obvious, m'dear) anyway, if you, my respected readers, haven't noticed it yet, the right column panel of my blog is stuffed with icons of all sorts. if you have new icons, could you please... PLEASE... share them with me?? *puppy eyes* im collecting icons. not-that-new hobby, you might say. anyway, till here. XOXO
btw, i just want to post this icon.
one of my newest favorites... *grins widely*
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benjamin almeda
Friday, February 13, 2009
benjamin almeda, our class' very own Saint Nicholas. 021309 it is? and we thought that s/he was going to reveal his/her identity to us today. we thought wrong. haha. but then again, as the mystery goes deeper... the excitement and thrill goes higher!! and, maybe, that's what benjamin almeda wants to obtain. and besides, s/he has given us black bags with our names on it! awww.. it was really touching. ...and the bottom of this mystery is yet to be reached...
im not someone who's into posting short entries but then again, there's always a first time for everything. this may not be my first, but it sure wont be my last. LOL.
btw, the university of the philippines rang us up a couple of days ago, telling my parents that im already a bonafide UPCAT passer. coooool. imagine, the university itself was the one who gave my parents the call!! i feel so special. hahaha... (lemme wallow in it for a second or two.)
elections for SSG officers 09-10... lots of options... lots of thrill and excitement... it was the election of the year. can anyone hear the dripping of sarcasm here?? if there's anything that i certainly hate, it's boredom. the lack of excitement. the lack of luster. boredom. ugh.
short entry? or not so much.
till here.
a couple of weeks and counting... let's all seize the day. CARPE DIEM.
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amazing race: students edition 2009
Monday, February 9, 2009
AMAZING RACE: STUDENTS EDITION. showing earlier this afternoon. location: mandaluyong.
the weather was just fine... not too sunny. the air was swelteringly humid but at least Apollo was too busy with something else to pay attention to the occurrences down south. anyway, my "teammates" and i were waiting in front of Adelina's store. we were supposed to hold RTU's Band's tarpouline. so we were just waiting... waiting... waiting... you get the idea. i mean, it seemed as if everyone already passed by and yet we were still there waiting for the freaking band to come. ah gawd. then RTU students came around... so we were like "here they are!! ALAS!!" but then, saying that they burst our bubbles is an understatement. they actually smashed our hopes to pieces and stomped on those pieces until all that can be seen by the naked eye are tiny particles glinting under the light. THE RTU BAND WAS NOWHERE TO BE SEEN. hence, we rushed to DBTC to check if the bands were still there. i mean, almost every band already passed us by!! we got there and, lo and behold! THE RTU BAND WAS STILL NOWHERE TO BE SEEN. our lucky star was really shining so brilliantly... ha. ha. ha. so, basically, my "teammates" and i were inadvertently forced to participate in an AMAZING RACE STUDENTS EDITION. brought to you by mandaluyong science high school... we turned around and started our 100meter dash (although im really certain that it was WAY MORE than a hundred meters) to intercept the parade. running... running... running... you get the idea. when we reached the final pitstop, maysilo circle, the first bands were already done. what a luck. told you, our lucky stars were really burning soooo brightly up in the night sky.. ha. but then again, we reached the final pitstop before most of our other classmates did. my "teammates" and i didnt get to flaunt ourselves in front of the mandaluyong crowd but our unexpected marathon was something to be proud of. (dont end your sentences with a preposition) fine. my "teammates" and i didnt get to flaunt ourselves in front of the mandaluyong crowd but our unexpected marathon was something to be proud of, right? (there. no more prepositional endings. haha.) it was amazing to think that we managed to go around mandaluyong ON FOOT. my endurance is high and i dont get tired easily. maybe it has something to do with the walking fetish in argentina... but then again, that was in argentina. ive never done that here in the philippines. it never crossed my mind that i would be able to walk from my house to mandsci. ever. but then again, nothing's too impossible. or so they say. me, for once, i can say that nothing is impossible. can be a bit unlikely. but not impossible.
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yes.. no.. yes... no..
Sunday, February 8, 2009
well. yesterday, it was an unofficial PROPPHI day! it felt really great to hang out with your bestest friend in the whole wide world. i mean, mico and i were talking about friendship (when was that again?). the thing is that friends always go separate ways. you can't command your friend to stay right where you are. no, dude. you're not hitler. you are a friend. and the thing after that is that no matter how 'separate' your ways may be, you will still have that link that connects you. that is, if the friendship is strong. like what i've mentioned to our dearest mystery benjamin almeda during a philosophical ym conversation that included lots of profound quotes, friendship is like fire... a breeze will snuff out a flame. but if the flame is burning brightly... fiercely... that breeze would just cause it to burn even brighter... fiercer. and that is friendship. and friendship cannot be measured by the length of acquaintance. rather, it is measured by the depth of it all. personally, i would prefer a friend with whom i shared all of 4 months to an acquaintance of ten years with whom i shared nothing. time is not synonymous to depth. but then again, time is a factor. not a key element, though. just a factor. and that is, maybe, why people who go through short, tough moments come out closer than people who've been acquainted with each other for years. acquainting and knowing are different. and, maybe, that is why friends who have shared both time and adventure and tears and laughter come out closer than ever. the foundation has been laid so strongly. and the walls have been built so firmly. the walls of Jericho that no man can ever destroy. except for the one inside the walls...
silence is the friend that never betrays. that is actually true. so as to say. silence doesnt mean yes. it doesnt mean no either. it is the gray area between yes and no. it can mean an answer that is better left unsaid, an answer that is capable of destruction, an indecision... it can never mean the one or the other because, sometimes, it means both.
O FORTUNA BY CARL ORFF... such a powerful song. listen to it guys...
powerful... gripping... i so love it!
[[reading anne rice's The Tale of the Body Thief while lisening to classical songs is really damned cool]]
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RIDDLE-DEE-DUM
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
jump. jump. JUMP!! if jumping were a crime, then i know of a few people who would be sentenced to death...
jump. jump. JUMP!! c'mon then everyone. let's all jump...! ...and vanish into the abysmal chasm of oblivion!!
i was thinking of the activity that we did in chemistry. we had to gather stuff and draw the chemical bonds of their components. phenylalamine. lecithin. caffeine. ammonium sulfate glycol. salicylic acid. citric acid. and of course, polyvinyl chloride. damn... so many polyvinyl chloride! i mean, having that much amount is enough to last several lifetimes! i was so sick of them...
137,000 points gained in texttwist today. that was a low score, really. but that was really cool considering the fact that we were just figuring out the longest word and then on to the next level. so basically, we were just answering one word per level. quite a job. or so they say. texttwist is really fun to play when you're with "teammates".. haha. wordpower congregation.
cleaning time during journ time. the journ students were asked to clean but only a few people were left in the journ room a minute after that certain announcement was made. ha! talk about being downright insensitive... anyway, that was fine since the task was completed without too much mess and all that. except for the fact that the red floorwax was really messy to begin with. (wondering about the chemical components of floor wax... any polyvinyl chloride in it?) besides, we had cokefloats courtesy of mam frias. and imagine, we were just kidding around when we asked her to treat us! cool mam frias...
run. jump. sway to the beat. profundity behind the vivid images. blatant truth shrouded with layers upon layers of euphemisms. run. jump. and sway to the beat. those who have eyes can be blind... those who have ears can be deaf... those who have mouths can be mute... what are you like? ...a pair of eyes, a pair of ears, a nose, HUMAN just like them. except for the fact that they have brains... run. jump. sway to the beat. riddle-dee-dum. riddle-dee-dum. ever wonder how it would all come out if it all started to break loose? ever wonder how it could end if it all started with a bang? ever wonder how it would appear if it all seemed to vanish on sight? run. jump. and sway to the beat. riddle-dee-dum.
a bit tricky... a bit in cognito... just a bit though. look beyond. look FAR FAR beyond... beyond the horizon of your perspective...
chau!
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[+] full-time UP Diliman BS Chemical Engineering student [+] 50% Filipina (by citizenship) 50% Chinese (by blood) [+] true-blue argentine kiddo [+] bookworm [+] mangaddicted [+] trilingual (filipino, english, spanish) [+] aspiring writer [+] appreciates learning and beauty [+] dreamer [+] traveller at heart [+] linguist wanna-be (at least 5 languages!) [+] looks at the world through multicolored glasses
esteemed authors
in order as dictated by my memory
+ neil gaiman + michael crichton + sidney sheldon + stephen king + jeffery deaver + caleb carr + kathy reisch + christopher pike + chuck palahniuk + clive staples lewis + john katzenbach + john ronald reuel tolkien + anne rice + peter beere + heather graham + richie tankersley cusick + ian fleming + chris wooding + patricia cornwell + mary higgins clark + stephen coonts + vladimir nabokov + agatha christie + robert lawrence stine + dean koontz + john grisham + jonathan kellerman + paulo coehlo + roald dahl + lewis carroll + sir james matthew barrie + frank baum + mark twain + michael connelly + arthur conan doyle + edgar allan poe + piers anthony + clive barker + tamora pierce + mary wollstonecraft shelley + bram stoker + dan brown + edith wharton + sue grafton + william blatty
anime/manga
as far as i can recall, these are the animes/mangas that i've read and/or watched.
currently still incomplete. blame my memory.
[] one piece [] battle royale [] get backers [] death note [] bleach [] ouran highschool host club [] gatekeepers [] blood + [] black cat [] fushigi yuugi [] ayashi no ceres [] full metal panic [] full metal alchemist [] fruits basket [] flame of recca [] spiral [] shuffle! [] slamdunk [] tactics [] fate stay night [] ultra maniac [] tsubasa chronicle [] evangelion [] elfen lied [] escaflowne [] ghost hunt [] elemental gelade [] detective conan [] darker than black [] DNangel [] gakuen alice [] gakuen heaven [] chobits [] gundam seed/wing/destiny [] gunslinger girl [] dot hack SIGN [] dot hack legend of the twilight [] harukanaru toki no naka de [] hayate no gotoku [] hunter x hunter [] inuyasha [] kyou kara maou [] hana yori dango [] hanazakari no kimitachi e [] zombie-loan [] vampire knight [] loveless [] yuyu hakusho [] you're under arrest [] yami no matsuei [] wolf's rain [] xxxholic [] weiss kreuz [] naruto [] prince of tennis [] rosario + vampire [] saiyuki [] pretear [] shaman king [] special A [] B.O.D.Y. [] koukou debut [] kimi wa petto [] boku ni natta watashi [] codebreaker [] lost+brain [] doubt [] eternal sabbath [] luck stealer [] number [] liar game [] kyou koi wo hajimemasu [] deadman wonderland [] mirai nikki [future diary] [] saboten no himitsu [] koizora [] majin tantei nougami neuro [] 07ghost [] camelot garden [] blank slate [] beast master [] pandora hearts [] [switch] [] kuroshitsuji [] d.gray-man [] wild ones [] trinity blood