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Thursday, October 30, 2008

sembreak. finally. (if you can call a three-day non-schooling schedule a sembreak, that is)

schoolpaper status:
"article-wise", mostly done... overall? we're halfway done. still have to make revisions... still have to proofread the drafts... still have to let sir zape check the layout... printing press dilemma... deadline crisis... missing people... uh-huh.

parliamentary status:
havent studied anything yet. hoping against hope that our trainor (the lawyer) wont embarrass me.. or rather, wont find anything that would allow him to embarrass me.. lol.

almeda 08-09 chorale status:
altooooo... altooooo... altooooo...
thought alto was easier than soprano.
thought wrong. haha.
i just dont have the talent in singing... lalala... cant carry a tune THAT LONG. lol. haha.

today, we practiced for the christmas concert.
all is calm... all is bright...
two lines that took us for about, like, an hour to learn...
roung yon VIRgin.. mother and child...
lalalala... the alto people have a different tune. lalala...
tiring... but, well, it was fun.

mam gripo's five-year-old daughter visited (or rather, stormed) the journ room.
and another roleplay began...
she was cute. and naughty. and wild. and she's got an attitude to boot.
paolo was the first victim. he was supposed to be killed by mico by slamming a wood (provided by alisa) on his head. then, paolo was the "ghost"
we were supposed to stay away from him because he was the GHOST.
alisa (spell check??) was hitting him with a ruler. COOL.
mico was the next victim.
he was the "ugly diamond"... haha.
marc was the last. at first, alisa wouldnt want to bother him or anything. then, we found out why...
turns out that marc was to be alisa's "long-term enemy"
lol.
it was very funny. paolo, marc and mico were, like, regressing!! paolo was trying to grab the ruler that alisa was using to hit him... marc used another chalboard eraser as his weapon against alisa's TWO CHALKBOARD ERASERS... mico stuck his tongue out at the little kid after she told him that he was ugly. LOL.
it was very VERY funny.
well, i was actually her first victim.
i was in the office, using the telephone... then she began to interview me... various questions that made me laugh out loud WHILE USING THE TELEPHONE.
then, she followed me to the journ room.
and the BABYSITTERS CLUB was born.

calculus project status:
zero. nada. nil.
have to work on it sooner!! craaaaaaap.

cmshs website status:
almost almost done.
more to go. lol.

anyway, have to go. im sleepy. tired... i have to finish reading AMERICAN GODS by NEIL GAIMAN...

almedation 07-08
greet mam tirones. it's her birthday tomorrow. it's your senior year's mom's birthday tomorrow.
and... uh... when are we going to have any reunion or something? i havent seen you for AGES!!!

sometimes, there are questions that just cannot be answered.

till here.
chau!

10:00 PM
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la vamos a matar algun dia...

Monday, October 27, 2008

la quiero matar a esta pelotuda de mierda.
es re fea. no solamente su cara si no su ser misma.
la quiero matar ya. ayudame alguien?

lol. i reckon no one will be able to understand what i just wrote. well, not everyone's supposed to know what it means after all.
if someone can understand that, HANDS DOWN...

bitterness is like cancer... it eats upon the host.
but anger is like fire... it burns it all clean.
- maya angelou

physics periodical exam was kinda cool.
i mean, ESSAY!!!!
that was COOL.
and we were asked to make an invention... haha. i just sorta not noticed the word "feasible" when i read the instructions... lol.
it was a bit hard though since it has been like 2 weeks when i last entered our physics class.
but, all in all, it was sorta cool. i mean, no computations and crap. just application and analysis.

i envy paranoids; they actually feel that people pay attention to them

economics exam was... uh... depressing.

graph this, graph that.

why the hell should i care about other people's supposed salary??

haha. i didnt know what to do. basically, im not expecting anything from the result of my exam. that was a gamble on my part.

hopefully, i would be able to get more than 50%...

hopefully. *crossing my fingers*

small people never learn how to be indifferent. they either envy or pity.

i told my ma that i'll be back home at around 3...

nice daughter that i am, i came home at 7:30. HAHA.

well, got an excuse though! we went with mam frias to this printing press. and lo and behold! we were able to finally see james' place.

ate pizza, fudgee.

drank coke, fit 'n right.

watched sakurano, watched (and answered) family feud...

cool.

two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and im not sure about the universe

- albert einstein

looking and staring and scanning and seeing and wondering...

both sides of the story.

not just the side of the hunter.

but also the side of the lion.

not just the grinning face of the moon.

but also the darker visage it hides behind.

i am still at lost.

at lost and wondering and downright annoyed.

well, what is so bad with being misunderstood anyway?

socrates. aristotle. luther. copernicus. and every other great soul that ever took flesh. they were blatantly threatened. deliberately oppressed. but they were never intimidated, werent they?

great spirits have always encountered violent oppositions from mediocre minds

- albert einstein

the great news editor is so fond of anarchy.

i think he's rubbing it off on me.

FREEDOM OF SPEECH! OF EXPRESSION!

martial law is not implemented in this nation.

martial law is over.

i so get your point.

what else is there to say?

heaps and heaps and HEAPS to do.

the schoolpaper... *still working on it*

the campus website...

projects and quizzes and activities and all those crap that we have to catch up since it has been like 2 weeks since we've last entered a proper class...

the national competition in parliamentary procedures...

the regional secondary schools press conference...

craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap.

btw, i was telling myself over and over that the nationals in parlia and the RSSPC JUST CANNOT CLASH!!

they just did.

crap.

we're going to baguio for parlia on november 23 to 27...

then, AND THEN... i found out that RSSPC is on november 25!!

wtf,,,

im crossing my fingers AGAIN. i dont want to just give up RSSPC... writing is my passion. im not gonna give up parlia either! public speaking is also close to my heart... and parlia is one of the things that ive been missing since then!

uh-huh.

i recall mam oben telling me that the gods are smiling down on me...

well, let them smile down on me again.

im not an atheist after all. im an agnostic. VERY DIFFERENT from each other.

an atheist does not believe that god exists.

an agnostic is just someone who believes that it is impossible to understand everything. basically, an agnostic is someone who believes that it is improbable to prove or disprove god's existence.

well, i believe that a Supreme Being exists.

that im sure of.

this world, this universe... everything... it's just plain unlikely that it all came together without some sort of divine intervention...

coincidence? i dont think so.

something. someone. whatever. it must start from somewhere.

and, i just know deep inside that a Supreme Being exists.

im not denying that or anything.

i just dont agree with the catholic doctrine. that's all.

well, im sleepy.. but cant sleep just yet.

gotta finish my journ project!! yay!

8:07 PM
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brain leak

Saturday, October 25, 2008

busy busy day.
left home at 8am... went back home at 7:30pm...
where have i gone??
haha... mico and i had this so-called exam for parliamentary...
it was THE 6-HOUR LONG EXAM.
bar exam!!! whoa whoa....
you know how many people use the expression NOSEBLEED??
you know how we created the phrase BRAIN LEAK??
well, we were all using it so lightly...
the exam that we had today.. that was the perfect paradigm for ABSOLUTE BRAIN LEAK AND INTERNAL HEMORRHAGE.
it was a twelve-part exam.
seven pages all in all.
and we had 6 hours to answer it.
now, you'll think... WHY 6 HOURS?!!!
yeah. well, the thing was that.. it was THAT difficult.
swear.
it would have been better if the thought flashing in our minds were like "oh. i know this. ive read this somewhere!"
but then NO.
it was more like "oh. oh. *pause* what's this?"
gee...
it was very. very. very. very. very. (you get the idea) DIFFICULT.
well, the maker of that exam is a lawyer. so, maybe, that's why.
but still!! we're just high school students!!
it was... traumatic.
mapeh periodical? chemistry? physics?
no match.
at least you have some idea with those subjects.
parlia exam??
saying that it was hard would be the understatement of the century.
and im not actually exaggerating.
good luck with us.
well, anyway, mico, mam lacson and i went to rockwell.
mam lacson is cool. fun to talk to. we were talking about relationships, hearsays, scandals, rumors, gossips, teenagers, and all those crap.
it was fun.
well, this entry would have to be quite short for now as i have to finish my TLE notes. not to mention that i have to study for the periodical exams that i would take this coming monday.
tsk. no sembreaks for me.
there's parlia... RSSPC... schoolpaper... christmas concert...
btw, i pray to the sweetest gods of the heavens, earths, and the underworld that the RSSPC and the parlia national would not clash.
THE SCHEDULES CANT CLASH.
im not going to be able to pick one. i want both. greedy as it may sound.

anyway, till later. or tomorrow. or whenever i find something worth posting. other than what's happening in my life... hahaha...

7:14 PM
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of luck and coincidence

Friday, October 24, 2008

this has been quite a day.
AGAIN.
still, we werent coming to any of our classes...
we seemed to be strangers in our own section.
and for proper reason.
haha...
my last proper class was like 2 weeks ago or something...
anyway, this day has been overflowing with luck and coincidence...
right, mico? LOL.

stress... stress... stress...

three exemptions. one done. six more to go.
hmmmm...
and i still have HEAPS of activities and works to catch up...
and by "heaps", i mean HEAPS...

tomorrow, i should have been studying for the upcoming periodical exams...
tomorrow, i should have been resting...
tomorrow, i should have been trying to get my mind off the stress that was feeding on it...
but then, life is not fair. LOL.
tomorrow, mico and i are going to have a six-hour long exam on parliamentary procedure.
SIX-HOUR LONG EXAM.
continuous.
what's that? bar exam?? lol.
haha. i wish.
anyway, im sort of nervous since it has been 3 years when i last participated in a parliamentary proceeding... and i became member of the NCR team just yesterday...
and im supposed to get high scores tomorrow.
well, the thirteen of us are all going to baguio for the competition.
but only 11 would be allowed to be part of the presentation. of the assembly.
and i definitely dont want to be just one of the alternates.
so, im supposed to be reviewing right now.
the thing was that it's not really appropriate to give a written exam to parliamentarians.
parliamentary procedure is all about wit, communication skills, debate abilities, and knowledge of the rules.
written exams can only prove one of those: the knowledge stuff.
how about wit? how about com skills? the debate abilities?
anyway, we would be given verbal exams soon.

bryan, daniel and i went to this so-called meeting with the mayor.
the mayor wasnt there though.
his proxy was.
anyway, it was a deja vu for bryan and me.
what happened this afternoon was EXACTLY what happened during the first YJAM meeting this year.
the script, the powerpoint presentation, everything.

meanwhile, the journalism contestants together with mam frias and sir dawisan went to the awarding ceremony of DSSPC.

of course, CMSHS bagged the highest points!!!!
GO MANDSCI!!!!
i cant really remember everyone's rank and i wont post it here if im not sure of my information.
one thing im sure of is that mandsci's total points exceeded the 2nd place's total points by a whopping 75 POINTS!!
GO MANDSCI! GO MANDSCI! GO MANDSCI!
we're going to the regionals!! good luck to us... think of naga... we're going to naga!!! lol.

parliamentary training is really tuesdays, thursdays, and saturdays?????????
what am i going to do with my life?!
lol.
cant they just schedule it every saturday?? im fine with it even if it's going to be from 7am to 9pm...
it's just that... im going to be pulled out of the classes AGAIN.
i dont learn anything...
well, sacrifices are really necessary... this is a national competition after all.

hmm... of course, since mandsci won the DSSPC... we were treated to mcdo! haha... the entire team went there (except for the others who werent allowed by their parents or something like that)
it was fun.
i so love the journmates!! mam frias is like one of us... she's like a student with whom we can share anything... cool.

well, i have to study. (haha) i have to phone a few people (heehee)
chau!

6:25 PM
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point of order

Thursday, October 23, 2008

oooookay.
it was quite a day.
first, let's start off with what happened with our plan to take english, elective, and filipino periodical exams today.
we were told that we cannot choose the exams that we are going to take. we must either take the exams that was taken on the first day OR take the exams that was taken today...
uh-oh.
sounds bad, right?
i mean, we didnt even study anything!!!
we were disconcerted. of course, we chose to take the exams scheduled for the first day...
the thing that upset us the most was that it was mr zape's instruction that we take the periodical exams on sembreak.
it was the OIC's instruction.
the precedence is high.
but, the problem was that he wasnt at school when we were told that we had to take the exams today!
craaaaap.
we were like "oh hell. what would happen to us now?"
then while we were answering the exam for english, mam frias came (what a luck) and told us that mr zape had just arrived!!!
and that he reiterated his former instruction that we can take the exams on sembreak!!!
it was a lucky break.
angelo was even commenting that paolo would have to be a believer from then on...
LOL.
anyway, just after i have passed my answer sheet to mam frias, mam oben came... standing right there in front of the journ room... motioning for me to come over...
then she gave me the news that i would be part of the parliamentary team who will compete for the nationals.
NATIONALS.
i was like "oh. uh-huh. that was quite... sudden."
and it was sudden.
someone backed out, that's why.
well, i was missing parliamentary proceedings since it has been three years since i last joined it.
basically, i was excited to join again.
parliamentary procedure is fun. it's just wit, good communication skills, and knowledge of parliamentary rules.
and so mam oben and i went off to fort bonifacio high school for the training.
it was fun. the training was fun.
well, it has been 3 years since i last participated in a parliamentary proceeding so i had to refresh my mind about the rules and technicalities,...
my companions were good.
the students from manila science were brilliant.
mico and oliver (manila science) kept on engaging into debates and such... well, mico was given the role of an "observer" meaning that he had to destroy the proceedings... oliver, on the other hand, was our team's presiding officer, meaning that he had to keep the team in order...
they had to have a verbal clash.
it was fun to watch.
and the best thing was that... we are going to baguio! haha... all of us. the thirteen of us. what a lucky number.
anyway, the bad thing is that the NCR parliamentary team's trainings are scheduled T TH S... meaning that i would have to miss heaps of academic-related works AGAIN...
the mainstream academic activities are piling up... higher and higher...
this is stress.
and i mean it.
journalism, parliamentary procedure, academics...
uh-huh.
hopefully, i would still be able to sleep. not exaggerating anything right here.
i wont have any sembreaks though. craaaaapppyyy...
well, this is life.

anyway, setting aside what happened today, im going to comment on something.
the thing was that when i went back to school this afternoon with mico and mam oben, i saw my yellow pad... there was something scribbled on it, instructing me to turn to the next page...
and so i did.
a friend left me a message telling me about someone else's words which are meant as an insult to me.
not gonna name names... lol.
a comment that crude... that immature... well, you just laugh it off.
cruel words do not taint the receiver.
it ruins the giver.

point of order... sustained.

7:53 PM
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back from unintentional hiatus

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

it has been quite some time when i last posted an entry in this blog.
blame globelines for that!
haha. they were the ones who failed to do their work. we had no internet connection for a month! that was... ugh... frustrating.
anyway, im back in the blogging world.
back from my unsolicited hiatus...

hmm.. lots of things to say...

let's see...

i seemed like an adopted classmate of 4-almeda...
why?
i wasnt going to class for almost two weeks... [i think it was almost two weeks... more or less.. more is possible.]
well, it wasnt just me. mico, paolo, marc, james, and angelo haven't been going to class for almost 2 weeks too.
we were doing the schoolpaper. the 6 of us were busy finishing it.
[we are actually still busy doing it.]
and we were also sort of training for the DSSPC... [if playing ricochet and travian can be counted as training, that is]
it was fun, though. not going to class and staying in either the journ room or the CAI room.
that part was fun.
the thing that bursts the bubble is that we have to catch up with everything that we have missed.
long tests, quizzes, recitations, projects, seatworks, activities...
INCLUDING THE PERIODICAL EXAMS.
basically, the 6 of us having an enjoyable sembreak is out of the question.
we dont even have any sembreak.
technically, we do have a week-long break. but then, the operative word is "enjoyable sembreak"...
we certainly wont be able to enjoy any rest and relaxation moments in that week-long so-called sembreak...
uh-huh
the schoolpaper is still yet to be done, the periodical exams must be taken, projects must be finished...
craaaaaaaaap...
life is like that, after all.

i just came home from school.
you know what they say about the school being the 2nd home?
it's quickly becoming my 1st home...
more often than not, i spend more time at school than in my own place.
today, we had the DSSPC.
and im not going to say anything more than that.
feature category depressed mico and me.
editorial depressed marc [or so he says].
editorial also depressed mico and me.
we were all quite depressed. except, i think, for paolo who was somewhat upset about the idea of him being the 2nd placer.
maybe it's because of his constant victory that losing is no longer an option for him.
it was the theme that depressed us the most. basically.
still hoping for the best, though.
and, like i said, i wont say anything more. haha...

we arrived at school at around 2pm...
we ordered food at around 3:30... we havent eaten lunch yet at that time.
it was fun hanging out with them.
i may be the only girl [as mam gigi pointed out] but i feel no inequity.
well, except for the fact that they keep on teasing me... picking on me...
whatever BULLIES. hahaha...

the english journalism computer has been the source of rowdy laughter for days...
or should i say, the gamehouse folder??
louie is mastering hamsterball...
marc and angelo are surmounting ricochet...
the group is passionate about texttwist...
marc seems to adore the game 'hello'... [he seems to adore the game folder]
well, we're all special in our little ways, right?
it's just that some are made more special than the others.
right marc?? [PEACE OUT!]

revenge is bittersweet. quote unquote from a once popular pc game, diablo 2.
what is it for?
nothing. i just want to put it here. for mico's sake, maybe. or for paolo's sake. for angelo? for james? marc? for me? or maybe, for us?
no one knows for sure.
i dont know for sure.
it's what popped out from my head right this moment. i just typed it for the sake of typing it.
bittersweet. that seemingly bizarre combination of flavors that, when you think about it, is not that bizarre anymore.
bittersweet. that odd amalgamation of words forming an oxymoron.
uh-huh.
bittersweet.

what else can i say?

maybe not so much right now. but im back on the blogging world and i will ascertain that the month-long hiatus will be compensated for.

chau!

5:48 PM
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