rain....
Saturday, March 31, 2007
-- currently trying to look for lyrics of "hesitate" but i just can't find ANY... the lyrics that i can find were all in kanji and hiragana... tsk... i can't find any romaji version... aww...
hmm... la lan... daan lan ulit..
xado nga ata tlga acong ngeenjoy s pgpopost ng entries s blog at nkakailang posts aco everyday a.. hehehe...
hmm... akanishi jin likes sugimoto aya...?? but...
nevermind...
[[[ warning: ramblings would follow... ]]]
this won't make any sense...
i'm sure of that...
but, i don't care.
it's not as if i'm writing of all of this just to make sense, eh...
as i've warned... ramblings would follow...
hai... i saw a nice video a while ago...
those tiny droplets of rain captured in a single moment of downpour...
just for about 3 minutes...
but, it was totally cool...
nee.. i'm being sappy...
but then, who cares? =D
some people dislike rain...
they say that the rain makes them feel bad...
they say that they can associate rain with death and sadness...
i just don't get it.
the rain comes from the heavens, right?
there is nothing about death and sadness in it...
i can barely see anything even REMOTELY associated with death or sadness in it..
there are only those tiny droplets plummeting from the skies...
and there is nothing to feel bad about that...
me...
when i die...
i want it to be on a rainy day...
don't take me wrong...
i DON'T want a storm...
i just want a downpour...
rain...
sounds crazy?
I DON'T THINK SO.
when it rains, it is so peaceful...
and it feels as if the rain would mourn, too...
then, my soul wouldn't be alone in crying, ne?
sometimes...
i get this feeling in my heart that i would die in the rain...
just a feeling.
just, maybe...
(maybe, this is why some people associate the rain with death and sadness...)
let's face the facts: everyone is afraid to die.
maybe, not for themselves...
but for leaving the people that they love..
in any way, people are afraid to die...
but..
one should NOT hide when faced with fear...
one should embrace it...
and that's what makes everything different...
dying is easy...
it's what you're going to leave here that makes it so difficult...
it's those things that you can't do anymore that makes it hard...
it's the uncertainty that makes it so scary...
right?
and when you die...
you die alone...
there might be people beside you...
your family and friends...
holding your hand...
telling you how much they love and care for you...
begging you not to depart...
but...
bottomline is you'll be leaving all alone...
ALONE.
and that's scary...
and that's another reason why i want it to rain when i die...
maybe my deathbed would be surrounded by the people i love...
or maybe not...
neither way...
the rain would be there...
i want it to be there...
i want it to pour...
so that... in a way...
i would feel that i won't be leaving alone...
i'm rambling...
i know it and i don't care...
hey, anyone who's reading this... don't get me wrong..
i'm not suicidal or anything.. i'm not even depressed...
yep, i may be sad... but that's just normal... heh heh...
i'm simply rambling... but i'm serious with everything...
-- currently listening to "love so sweet" by arashi
JA NE!
>
Y Y Y
real face
-- currently listening to "Real Face" by KAT-TUN
hmm,,
what you told me is quite.. er.. convincing..
how can we be close if i don't want us to be close in the first place?
yep, point taken.
but, how about this one...
how can i not want us to be close IF you keep on acting like YOU don't want us to be close?
is my point taken?
i don't think so.
okay, maybe my basis for comparison is quite limited... as i have not yet faced a variety of people, unlike you..
but, one thing's i'm sure of...
i know that i won't do something that would ruin me...
i won't do something that would cause my downfall...
i have a brain and i know how to use it..
i have a heart and i know how to act on it..
and i know that the heart and brain should work together for the benefit of the owner...
i'm not stupid.
i know i'm not.
yes, i'm still young...
yes, i'm still dependent...
but how could i grow and be independent if you keep on chaining me to that stupid wall that you call "protection"???
i'm not saying that i want you not to mind me...
i'm not even saying that i want you not to protect and care for me..
what i'm saying..
and asking...
is for you to know that i should be able to learn how to be myself..
that i should be able to stand up for myself..
that i should be able to do things accordign to myself and for myself...
i'm not saying that i want to take care of my life ALONE...
i just want to learn how to take care of myself ALONE...
because, there will come a time when i will have to face the real world alone..
there would come a time when i have to stand up for myself without anyone to lean to...
a time when i would travel the paths of life without anyone to support me..
that time will come.
you know that, right?
you just mentioned it a while ago...
innocence is bliss...
but not for too long.
one should be aware of the dangers in order for that person to know how to avoid those dangers...
one should be aware of the nature of the traps for that person to know how to act when he/she encounters the said traps...
how are you going to prevent a certain disease if you don't know its nature?
how are you going to avoid a poisonous plant if you don't know about its poison?
awareness is a friend that would protect...
and that's what i believe in.
-- currently listening to "yuragu koto nai ai"... 1stOP of getbackers...
hmm...
may napanood ako..
basta, merong mgssuicide...
sbi nung lalaking mgssuicide...
he's depressed...
the world's turning its back on him...
there's nothing more left for him to continue living...
tsk..
stupid guy...
he said that the world is cruel...
hell yeah!
the world is REALLY cruel...
and now, if the world is cruel, SO WHAT?
is that reason to die?
is that a reason to succumb to the cruelty of the world?
tsk...
the world is cruel but that doesn't mean that you have to die...
because if that is what's supposed to happen, then the world would lose all of its inhabitants...
so, what are you planning to do? suicide?
tsk...
that's like saying to the "cruel world" that you're already surrendering yourself...
that's as simple as giving in to a fight...
one word: COWARD.
if you really hate this world, then why don't you fight it?
if you really want to take revenge upon this world, then why are you surrendering?
this world won't give you that kind of challenge unless you're worth it...
and by surrendering, you're simply showing that you are UNWORTHY of it...
face the challenges of this world...
face it and bear with it...
and once you make it through...
you will be able to say that you win the fight...
suicide is backing off...
and do you really want to back off from a fight when your opponent is the one that you hate the most?
illogical...
some says that suicide would mean freedom from all of the sadness in the world...
i say, death is not the key to freedom.
one is simply running away like a cowardly mouse if one chooses death...
dying is easy...
you simply slash your wrist and watch your blood drips out of you...
the pain would be unbelievable, yes... but it won't take too long until you take your last breath..
but..
would doing that satisfy you?
would doing that free you?
i don't think so.
living is harder...
it's like a daily fight...
and the pain and grief that you feel would last for long..
but, after you've done all what you're supposed to do..
after you've fulfilled what you want to do,...
when you're lying on your deathbed...
you can say that you are satisfied...
maybe, not THAT satisfied...
but, at least, you can smile and say that you've fought hard with the cruel world..
maybe, for you, you did not win because you're dying and the world is still alive...
but...
in reality, you have won the fight..
because you did not backoff...
you fought hard...
and you did not lose hope..
and that is something, at least.
-- currently listening to "hesitate" by akanishi jin
hmm,,
what you told me is quite.. er.. convincing..
how can we be close if i don't want us to be close in the first place?
yep, point taken.
but, how about this one...
how can i not want us to be close IF you keep on acting like YOU don't want us to be close?
is my point taken?
i don't think so.
okay, maybe my basis for comparison is quite limited... as i have not yet faced a variety of people, unlike you..
but, one thing's i'm sure of...
i know that i won't do something that would ruin me...
i won't do something that would cause my downfall...
i have a brain and i know how to use it..
i have a heart and i know how to act on it..
and i know that the heart and brain should work together for the benefit of the owner...
i'm not stupid.
i know i'm not.
yes, i'm still young...
yes, i'm still dependent...
but how could i grow and be independent if you keep on chaining me to that stupid wall that you call "protection"???
i'm not saying that i want you not to mind me...
i'm not even saying that i want you not to protect and care for me..
what i'm saying..
and asking...
is for you to know that i should be able to learn how to be myself..
that i should be able to stand up for myself..
that i should be able to do things accordign to myself and for myself...
i'm not saying that i want to take care of my life ALONE...
i just want to learn how to take care of myself ALONE...
because, there will come a time when i will have to face the real world alone..
there would come a time when i have to stand up for myself without anyone to lean to...
a time when i would travel the paths of life without anyone to support me..
that time will come.
you know that, right?
you just mentioned it a while ago...
innocence is bliss...
but not for too long.
one should be aware of the dangers in order for that person to know how to avoid those dangers...
one should be aware of the nature of the traps for that person to know how to act when he/she encounters the said traps...
how are you going to prevent a certain disease if you don't know its nature?
how are you going to avoid a poisonous plant if you don't know about its poison?
awareness is a friend that would protect...
and that's what i believe in.
-- currently listening to "yuragu koto nai ai"... 1stOP of getbackers...
hmm...
may napanood ako..
basta, merong mgssuicide...
sbi nung lalaking mgssuicide...
he's depressed...
the world's turning its back on him...
there's nothing more left for him to continue living...
tsk..
stupid guy...
he said that the world is cruel...
hell yeah!
the world is REALLY cruel...
and now, if the world is cruel, SO WHAT?
is that reason to die?
is that a reason to succumb to the cruelty of the world?
tsk...
the world is cruel but that doesn't mean that you have to die...
because if that is what's supposed to happen, then the world would lose all of its inhabitants...
so, what are you planning to do? suicide?
tsk...
that's like saying to the "cruel world" that you're already surrendering yourself...
that's as simple as giving in to a fight...
one word: COWARD.
if you really hate this world, then why don't you fight it?
if you really want to take revenge upon this world, then why are you surrendering?
this world won't give you that kind of challenge unless you're worth it...
and by surrendering, you're simply showing that you are UNWORTHY of it...
face the challenges of this world...
face it and bear with it...
and once you make it through...
you will be able to say that you win the fight...
suicide is backing off...
and do you really want to back off from a fight when your opponent is the one that you hate the most?
illogical...
some says that suicide would mean freedom from all of the sadness in the world...
i say, death is not the key to freedom.
one is simply running away like a cowardly mouse if one chooses death...
dying is easy...
you simply slash your wrist and watch your blood drips out of you...
the pain would be unbelievable, yes... but it won't take too long until you take your last breath..
but..
would doing that satisfy you?
would doing that free you?
i don't think so.
living is harder...
it's like a daily fight...
and the pain and grief that you feel would last for long..
but, after you've done all what you're supposed to do..
after you've fulfilled what you want to do,...
when you're lying on your deathbed...
you can say that you are satisfied...
maybe, not THAT satisfied...
but, at least, you can smile and say that you've fought hard with the cruel world..
maybe, for you, you did not win because you're dying and the world is still alive...
but...
in reality, you have won the fight..
because you did not backoff...
you fought hard...
and you did not lose hope..
and that is something, at least.
-- currently listening to "hesitate" by akanishi jin
Y Y Y
another post... hmm...
Friday, March 30, 2007
hmm...
another post for this day, huh?
maybe, i'm just bored enough...
maybe, i'm just inspired enough...
or maybe..
JUST MAYBE..
my heart's just TIRED enough to handle all of this...
tsk..
i dunno...
maybe..
maybe not.
no one can be sure..
right?
maybe.
maybe not.
tears are important, WITHOUT A DOUBT.
but, in order to grow...
people must LEARN on their MISTAKES...
people must DO SOMETHING to correct those MISTAKES...
one should NOT wallow on sadness...
SHOULD NOT just cry to death...
the quote says that the eyes must do SOME raining...
just SOME.
not MUCH...
heh! there's a big difference...
switching topics...
i wonder why people have emotions...
i mean, without it, the world would be safer and more peaceful..
no anger.
no envy.
no sadness.
no malice.
no regrets.
there would be nothing...
and then, that's when it CLICKED...
yep, without emotions... there would be NOTHING.
no happiness.
no laughter.
no joy.
nothing.
bare.
the world would be peaceful... but...
A LOT LESS MAGICAL.
and A LOT LESS ENJOYABLE.
nice... graduates na...
ate murielle... ndi pdn kta nbbgyan ng letter...
tsk...
nu b yan...
senxa n po tlga...
mmmiss kta...
tsk..
drama ah...
ndi ko lan alam kung kelan ko b pdeng ibigay sau ung letter co e...
naman kasi... ndi ko p tinapos nung monday or tuesday... sus...
happy birthday din pala kay kristoffer john almeda...
tpos...
happy chuchu day din kay rhazel at tope...
hehehe...
just wanna say thanks to all the people who made my life COOL.
those people whom i shared all my MAGNIFICENT moments...
to those who cared a lot...
who loved a lot...
who teased a lot...
who hugged a lot...
who shared a lot..
to those people who will always be in my heart...
who will always be kept forever inside my soul...
who will always be dear to me..
those people who walked in when the world seems to walk out on me..
those who gave support..
those who patted my shoulders with genuine concern...
those people...
those true friends...
hontou ni arigatou minna-san... (thank you very much everyone)
JA NE...
another post for this day, huh?
maybe, i'm just bored enough...
maybe, i'm just inspired enough...
or maybe..
JUST MAYBE..
my heart's just TIRED enough to handle all of this...
tsk..
i dunno...
maybe..
maybe not.
no one can be sure..
right?
maybe.
maybe not.
tears are important, WITHOUT A DOUBT.
but, in order to grow...
people must LEARN on their MISTAKES...
people must DO SOMETHING to correct those MISTAKES...
one should NOT wallow on sadness...
SHOULD NOT just cry to death...
the quote says that the eyes must do SOME raining...
just SOME.
not MUCH...
heh! there's a big difference...
switching topics...
i wonder why people have emotions...
i mean, without it, the world would be safer and more peaceful..
no anger.
no envy.
no sadness.
no malice.
no regrets.
there would be nothing...
and then, that's when it CLICKED...
yep, without emotions... there would be NOTHING.
no happiness.
no laughter.
no joy.
nothing.
bare.
the world would be peaceful... but...
A LOT LESS MAGICAL.
and A LOT LESS ENJOYABLE.
nice... graduates na...
ate murielle... ndi pdn kta nbbgyan ng letter...
tsk...
nu b yan...
senxa n po tlga...
mmmiss kta...
tsk..
drama ah...
ndi ko lan alam kung kelan ko b pdeng ibigay sau ung letter co e...
naman kasi... ndi ko p tinapos nung monday or tuesday... sus...
happy birthday din pala kay kristoffer john almeda...
tpos...
happy chuchu day din kay rhazel at tope...
hehehe...
just wanna say thanks to all the people who made my life COOL.
those people whom i shared all my MAGNIFICENT moments...
to those who cared a lot...
who loved a lot...
who teased a lot...
who hugged a lot...
who shared a lot..
to those people who will always be in my heart...
who will always be kept forever inside my soul...
who will always be dear to me..
those people who walked in when the world seems to walk out on me..
those who gave support..
those who patted my shoulders with genuine concern...
those people...
those true friends...
hontou ni arigatou minna-san... (thank you very much everyone)
JA NE...
Y Y Y
namida wa iranai
four hours...
four hours nnman aco dito s harap ng pc..
four hours plng..
patuloy na ang pagdami ng mga files co dito...
tsk...
heehee..
( currently listening to "innocence" by Miyuki Hashimoto... ending song ng shuffle!...)
hmm...
such a nice song.. even though i can't understand it... (MALAMANG..)
pero ang ganda pa din... may some words naman akong naiintindihan...
pero those words won't make any sense...
ganun naman talaga..
imagine this one...
you don't know how to speak english kunyari...
then you see this sentence,,
the sadness can make the happiness more true
tapos ang alam mo lang dian na words ay ang mga sumusunod:
sadness.
happiness.
true.
cge nga, panu m maiintindihan yang sentence n yan kung tatlong words lan ung alam mo ung meaning??
para bang "what's with sadness, happiness, and true??"
hehe...
parang ganyan lan din sa japanese..
unless you really know how to speak or read the language...
you won't understand a thing.
or maybe, you will be able to understand the words..
BUT IT WON'T MAKE ANY SENSE.
got it?
hehe...
(listening to "nagareboshi" by homemadekazoku... naruto shippuuden...ost...)
When I look at the sky
hey, the stars are still embracing.
These stars look like a crowd of people,
emitting different types of light.
That's right, that's why . . .
I want to shine for once
I close my eyes and swear.
I entrust my dreams to a shooting star.
hmm... wala c papa naun dito s bahai...
kagabi kasi dpt kakausapn co n xa..
kaya lan...
wancoo ba... bglang dmating kpatid co..
as if on cue..
so ndi co nlng tinuloy..
para kasing dba, AS IF ON CUE...
BIGLA dumating ung kpatid co...
there's THAT something that stopped me from talking...
dunno...
later nlng cguro..
hmm....
15 years of everything...
lahat ng opinions and thoughts co about everything...
lahat yun...
i'm planning to tell him ALL OF THAT...
pag nagagalit kasi xa...
hndi lan kmi ngpapansinan...
i want that to change.
i mean, not "change" as in TOTALLY...
i just want to talk...
this time, i want him to listen.
JUST LISTEN.
and i want myself to talk...
JUST TALK.
just that...
tapos...
dunno what will happen after that...
i don't even know what will happen DURING THAT...
i just have to take the risk, right?
hehehe...
(listening to "tomorrow" by Shimokawa Mikuni... ost of fullmetal panic..)
nakakamiss naman ang cmshs...
ung mga skulworx...
ung mga kulitan...
ingay...
sermon ng mga teachers...
cramming...
maagang pagpasok pra s zoo homeworx...
ung mga klasm8s na lging nangungulit...
ung mga kaibigan na lging kakwentuhan...
lahat...
nakakamiss...
tsk..
one day, i'm gonna make a special entry just for those people who've made my hghschool life really COOL...
ja ne!
four hours nnman aco dito s harap ng pc..
four hours plng..
patuloy na ang pagdami ng mga files co dito...
tsk...
heehee..
( currently listening to "innocence" by Miyuki Hashimoto... ending song ng shuffle!...)
hmm...
such a nice song.. even though i can't understand it... (MALAMANG..)
pero ang ganda pa din... may some words naman akong naiintindihan...
pero those words won't make any sense...
ganun naman talaga..
imagine this one...
you don't know how to speak english kunyari...
then you see this sentence,,
the sadness can make the happiness more true
tapos ang alam mo lang dian na words ay ang mga sumusunod:
sadness.
happiness.
true.
cge nga, panu m maiintindihan yang sentence n yan kung tatlong words lan ung alam mo ung meaning??
para bang "what's with sadness, happiness, and true??"
hehe...
parang ganyan lan din sa japanese..
unless you really know how to speak or read the language...
you won't understand a thing.
or maybe, you will be able to understand the words..
BUT IT WON'T MAKE ANY SENSE.
got it?
hehe...
(listening to "nagareboshi" by homemadekazoku... naruto shippuuden...ost...)
When I look at the sky
hey, the stars are still embracing.
These stars look like a crowd of people,
emitting different types of light.
That's right, that's why . . .
I want to shine for once
I close my eyes and swear.
I entrust my dreams to a shooting star.
hmm... wala c papa naun dito s bahai...
kagabi kasi dpt kakausapn co n xa..
kaya lan...
wancoo ba... bglang dmating kpatid co..
as if on cue..
so ndi co nlng tinuloy..
para kasing dba, AS IF ON CUE...
BIGLA dumating ung kpatid co...
there's THAT something that stopped me from talking...
dunno...
later nlng cguro..
hmm....
15 years of everything...
lahat ng opinions and thoughts co about everything...
lahat yun...
i'm planning to tell him ALL OF THAT...
pag nagagalit kasi xa...
hndi lan kmi ngpapansinan...
i want that to change.
i mean, not "change" as in TOTALLY...
i just want to talk...
this time, i want him to listen.
JUST LISTEN.
and i want myself to talk...
JUST TALK.
just that...
tapos...
dunno what will happen after that...
i don't even know what will happen DURING THAT...
i just have to take the risk, right?
hehehe...
(listening to "tomorrow" by Shimokawa Mikuni... ost of fullmetal panic..)
nakakamiss naman ang cmshs...
ung mga skulworx...
ung mga kulitan...
ingay...
sermon ng mga teachers...
cramming...
maagang pagpasok pra s zoo homeworx...
ung mga klasm8s na lging nangungulit...
ung mga kaibigan na lging kakwentuhan...
lahat...
nakakamiss...
tsk..
one day, i'm gonna make a special entry just for those people who've made my hghschool life really COOL...
ja ne!
Y Y Y
no pain, no gain...
Thursday, March 29, 2007
hainaku... so, ayang pic ni kamenashi kazuya with a cute doggie... yan ay para kay propphi... tsk..
ankyoot din ni kame-chan... =D
kyoot din ung doggie oh...
nageenjoy ako mxado mg "pic hunting" ngaun...
actually...
9 hours na aco s hrap ng pc..
minamahal co na mxado itong pc co..
AS IN.
kaya nga lan...
nasira ung program ng yahoo messenger co e...
ayaw na ulit xa mdlowd dito s pc co.. tsk... nu b nman yan...
akanishi jin is currently in an "indefinite hiatus" from johnny's entertainment...
he's studying language abroad..
definitely, English ung pinag-aaralan nia..
he loves the language e...
koike teppei...
kyoot nya dian... hehe...
msyado akong naaaliw sa mga japanese.. ang kyoot kasi nila... ganda pa ng mga mata...
(wala namang DISAGREE dun DIBA???)
ganda din ng language nila..
ang mahirap nga lan...
pag japanese ka...
hirap ka sa english...
yun lang.
but still....
ayoko mging japanese.
natutuwa lan tlga aco s knla..
ang gaganda ng mga mata...
tsk...
kyooot...
a teardrop...
inevitable..
everyone is entitled to shed tears...
"boys don't cry..."
i definitely DISAGREE.
why shouldn't boys cry? everyone is given those tiny tear glands in order for people to shed tears once in a while..
crying is NOT a sign of weakness.
maybe, crying without proper reason means something else (insanity.. as such,,) but crying to show emotions like sadness or even happiness is a brave thing to do..
why?
because not everyone can express emotions.
not everyone has a heart that can TRULY feel.
not everyone is strong enough to handle extreme emotions.
"emotions are for the weak..."
CERTAINLY NOT TRUE.
emotions are ACTUALLY for the strong..
strong at heart.
strong in mind.
a soul that is strong enough not to shatter...
that is the soul that can handle emotions..
that is the soul that is willing to face the facts that nothing is perfect and that mistakes should be given the chance to be corrected...
that is the soul of a human striving to live...
ironically, the hardest part of life is living.
LIVING is different from EXISTENCE.
existence is only the presence of a human body in the human realm...
living is enjoying that existence to the best of the human's ability..,
and only a few people has the power and strength to "live" their lives...
in life, we have to risk something in order to gain something...
NO PAIN, NO GAIN...
risks are inevitable..
danger is always, ALWAYS present.. since the day we were born...
those who are afraid to take risks are TAKING THE MOST DANGEROUS RISK...
imagine you're lost in a forest...
you just can't stand still and hope that maybe, just maybe, you will be safe...
that is plain and utter STUPIDITY.
you have to roam around..
you have to walk...
you have to find your way out..
there are a lot of risks...
wild animals..
traps in the forest...
deadly pollen from unknown plants...
and yes, maybe you'll get lost EVEN MORE...
but still, at least, YOU TRIED.
and still, at least, YOU HAVE THE CHANCE TO FIND YOUR WAY OUT.
and that is something that one is expected to do...
not just stand still...
take the risk.
it may not be the best way...
but it's better than standing still and waiting for things to happen to you...
because in reality, they won't.
you just can't find your way out of a forest by standing still, right?
same goes in life...
you just can't find what you're supposed to do...
you just can't know what your purpose is...
you just can't live your life...
UNLESS YOU TAKE A RISK.
ja ne!
Y Y Y
newton's third law
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
hainaku...
why does life has to keep on following the rules?
when you're happy... expect sadness...
when you're TOO happy... expect TOO MUCH sadness...
a great deal of sadness.
i know (and i believe) in the word BALANCE.
it is needed.
it is crucial.
but why is it that in MY life, balance seems to in chaos...
too much extremes.
i mean, when i'm really happy...
as in REALLY HAPPY..
my world gets toppled over by something that would cause me to become extreme sad...
as in EXTREMELY SAD..
i know that it is how the world works..
but..
hai...
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROWANE!
thanks sa lahat wanie!... nice, sixteen kna po ate wane... heehee...
msaya ung celebration ng birthday mu... alam naman ng lhat na nagenjoy ka e... hehe...
hainaku...
bakit ganun..?
kung sino pa ung inaasahan mong magtitiwala at maniniwala sayo.. yun pa ung unang nagdududa..
kung sino pa ung taong alam mong magttrust sayo...
un pa ung unang magddoubt sa kakayahan mo...
kailangan pa tlgang basahin ang diary co para lang mlaman nia ang mga ngyayari sa buhay ko?
bakit kaya ndi nlng nia itanong...
sabagay...
hindi kami close...
tsk..
ang diary, private thoughts...
personal...
for the owner's eyes only..
tama bang basahin tapos mgjudge agad just because of what was written there????
the hell...
thoughts co yun...
THOUGHTS.
at hindi yun dpat binabasa...
THOUGHTS KO NGA KASI YUN!
mailto:!$&*#$^#!@&%.....
don't judge me with what you've read...
those are my thoughts...
and the only person who can judge me is MYSELF.
kasi nga, thoughts ko yun...
sana lang talaga diba, nagtitiwala ka sakin na hindi ako gagawa ng bagay na ikasisira co...
sana lang talaga naniniwala ka sa lahat ng sinasabi ko...
ibaba mo naman yung pride mo, kahit mnsan lang...
maniwala ka naman sa akin...
yun yung missing part eh,,,
trust.
sana lang ibigay mo naman yun sakin...
kung ibang tao, hindi mo magawang pagkatiwalaan...
sana naman ako pagkatiwalaan mo...
hindi kasi maganda sa pakiramdam yung sarili mong pamilya hindi nagtitiwala sayo...
cge fine, don't appreciate me...
kelan mo ba naman naappreciate lahat ng gnawa ko...??
kelan ka ba ngsabi ng congratulations sakin??
pag mataas ang nakuha kong grades, kelan mo ba yun naappreciate??
yung negative lang kasi pinapansin mo e..
hindi mo ba alam na masakit yun?
lahat kasi ng tao ngkcrave ng appreciation...
at xmpre una clang mageexpect ng gnun sa family... at friends...
eh buti pa nga ang friends co, naaappreciate ako...
eh ikaw?? KELAN??
lahat ng gawin ko may mali parin para sayo...
i don't want to shed tears anymore...
worthy ka ba?
ewan...
pero masakit lang talaga ung pagdudahan ka...
iba yun eh...
cge, fine...
hindi ka showy...
hindi ko nga alam kung mahal mo ba talaga ako e...
pero sana...
sana lang talaga...
sana...
trust me naman...
yan lang tlaga...
i seem to be shedding a lot of tears lately...
i don't even know where i can get the energy to cry,,
it is tiring...
it's as if i just want to lay down and stare into the blank space..
the tears can no longer flow...
my heart is already tired...
i can't blame it..
everyone has limitations...
no one can take a great deal of sadness constantly...
and not just break down..
when all of my secrets have been revealed...
there's no use trying to mask what i can really feel...
i want to scream...
but my throat hurts...
i can't speak..
i want to smile...
but my heart won't follow...
tired and weeping...
shattering all over again...
i just want to be loved...
i just want to be appreciated...
i guess, i'll always be harboring sadness...
behind the smiling mask that people can see..
i guess, i'll always be lonely..
deep within my laughter...
i don't know...
bye for now...
why does life has to keep on following the rules?
when you're happy... expect sadness...
when you're TOO happy... expect TOO MUCH sadness...
a great deal of sadness.
i know (and i believe) in the word BALANCE.
it is needed.
it is crucial.
but why is it that in MY life, balance seems to in chaos...
too much extremes.
i mean, when i'm really happy...
as in REALLY HAPPY..
my world gets toppled over by something that would cause me to become extreme sad...
as in EXTREMELY SAD..
i know that it is how the world works..
but..
hai...
BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROWANE!
thanks sa lahat wanie!... nice, sixteen kna po ate wane... heehee...
msaya ung celebration ng birthday mu... alam naman ng lhat na nagenjoy ka e... hehe...
hainaku...
bakit ganun..?
kung sino pa ung inaasahan mong magtitiwala at maniniwala sayo.. yun pa ung unang nagdududa..
kung sino pa ung taong alam mong magttrust sayo...
un pa ung unang magddoubt sa kakayahan mo...
kailangan pa tlgang basahin ang diary co para lang mlaman nia ang mga ngyayari sa buhay ko?
bakit kaya ndi nlng nia itanong...
sabagay...
hindi kami close...
tsk..
ang diary, private thoughts...
personal...
for the owner's eyes only..
tama bang basahin tapos mgjudge agad just because of what was written there????
the hell...
thoughts co yun...
THOUGHTS.
at hindi yun dpat binabasa...
THOUGHTS KO NGA KASI YUN!
mailto:!$&*#$^#!@&%.....
don't judge me with what you've read...
those are my thoughts...
and the only person who can judge me is MYSELF.
kasi nga, thoughts ko yun...
sana lang talaga diba, nagtitiwala ka sakin na hindi ako gagawa ng bagay na ikasisira co...
sana lang talaga naniniwala ka sa lahat ng sinasabi ko...
ibaba mo naman yung pride mo, kahit mnsan lang...
maniwala ka naman sa akin...
yun yung missing part eh,,,
trust.
sana lang ibigay mo naman yun sakin...
kung ibang tao, hindi mo magawang pagkatiwalaan...
sana naman ako pagkatiwalaan mo...
hindi kasi maganda sa pakiramdam yung sarili mong pamilya hindi nagtitiwala sayo...
cge fine, don't appreciate me...
kelan mo ba naman naappreciate lahat ng gnawa ko...??
kelan ka ba ngsabi ng congratulations sakin??
pag mataas ang nakuha kong grades, kelan mo ba yun naappreciate??
yung negative lang kasi pinapansin mo e..
hindi mo ba alam na masakit yun?
lahat kasi ng tao ngkcrave ng appreciation...
at xmpre una clang mageexpect ng gnun sa family... at friends...
eh buti pa nga ang friends co, naaappreciate ako...
eh ikaw?? KELAN??
lahat ng gawin ko may mali parin para sayo...
i don't want to shed tears anymore...
worthy ka ba?
ewan...
pero masakit lang talaga ung pagdudahan ka...
iba yun eh...
cge, fine...
hindi ka showy...
hindi ko nga alam kung mahal mo ba talaga ako e...
pero sana...
sana lang talaga...
sana...
trust me naman...
yan lang tlaga...
i seem to be shedding a lot of tears lately...
i don't even know where i can get the energy to cry,,
it is tiring...
it's as if i just want to lay down and stare into the blank space..
the tears can no longer flow...
my heart is already tired...
i can't blame it..
everyone has limitations...
no one can take a great deal of sadness constantly...
and not just break down..
when all of my secrets have been revealed...
there's no use trying to mask what i can really feel...
i want to scream...
but my throat hurts...
i can't speak..
i want to smile...
but my heart won't follow...
tired and weeping...
shattering all over again...
i just want to be loved...
i just want to be appreciated...
i guess, i'll always be harboring sadness...
behind the smiling mask that people can see..
i guess, i'll always be lonely..
deep within my laughter...
i don't know...
bye for now...
Y Y Y
recognition??
Monday, March 26, 2007
Hmm... aun... msayang araw... hehe... recognition day naun... i mean, kanina pala.. sa AVR ginanap.. as always...
aun... then, after nun... pmnta kmi sa mega... nauna kmi nila rommel, anne, at itay marjohn... then, kumain muna kami...
sizzling plate.
tsk..
bagal ko kumain...
spicy nga ung squid pero ndi ung dhil s spice ung kabagalan kong kumain e...
mainit.
napakainit nung rice.
tsk...
umuusok pa tlga...
pag dian tlga aco kumakain, inaabot ng ilang oras...
hehe...
then, dumating sila rowane, nory, carla, at marlon..
eh sila ederlyn and company, na kina diane pdn...
so, we decided na manood na muna ng movie...
we watched "zombies"...
ganda kasi nung poster,...
kala namin nkakatakot...
AKALA LAN PALA TALAGA...
wala nga tlgang tamang akala...
tsk...
patayan lan cla dun...
ndi suspense...
naman oh...
okee lan kasi sakin ung mga patayan..
ung mga kadiring pinapakita ung mga internal organs.
ung mga pugutan ng ulo.
tusukan ng mata.
mutilation.
lahat un okee lan talaga sakin.
NO EFFECT.
maaawa lang ako dun sa victim. (xmpre...)
pero...
mabilis kasi ako magulat.
AS IN.
ayoko ng nakakagulat kasi maingay ako magulat e...
pero, actually...
maingay ako manood..
puro comments and reactions ako pag nanonood ng suspense or horror...
then, after nung movie, nagkita-kita kami nila laiza..
ang adeek nga e..
pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao kasi ba naman....
kinukuhaan nila ng picture ung mga mannequins dun...
at si mark, aba naman...
NAGPOPOSE PA....
ankyoot nga e,,,
hehehe,,,,
center of attention pero cool....
heehee...
then, aun...
i have to be home by 5:30... eh napansin ko ung oras, mga 5:20 na...
pasaway tlgang bata ako...
kaya ayun...
eh si anne, sinundo na din xa ni tita prescy sa mega...
so aun, kami nila rommel at marjohn, uwi na kami...
si marlon kasi ayaw pa niya umuwi eh...
mas mabilis pala umuwi pag libertad ang sasakyan na jeep...
kanina co lan nalaman yun e...
dami nga lan kailangang daanan na mga twists and turns bago makadating dun sa pilahan ng mga libertad na jeep..
galing ni rommel... parang tourguide lan e... hehe..
till here...
aun... then, after nun... pmnta kmi sa mega... nauna kmi nila rommel, anne, at itay marjohn... then, kumain muna kami...
sizzling plate.
tsk..
bagal ko kumain...
spicy nga ung squid pero ndi ung dhil s spice ung kabagalan kong kumain e...
mainit.
napakainit nung rice.
tsk...
umuusok pa tlga...
pag dian tlga aco kumakain, inaabot ng ilang oras...
hehe...
then, dumating sila rowane, nory, carla, at marlon..
eh sila ederlyn and company, na kina diane pdn...
so, we decided na manood na muna ng movie...
we watched "zombies"...
ganda kasi nung poster,...
kala namin nkakatakot...
AKALA LAN PALA TALAGA...
wala nga tlgang tamang akala...
tsk...
patayan lan cla dun...
ndi suspense...
naman oh...
okee lan kasi sakin ung mga patayan..
ung mga kadiring pinapakita ung mga internal organs.
ung mga pugutan ng ulo.
tusukan ng mata.
mutilation.
lahat un okee lan talaga sakin.
NO EFFECT.
maaawa lang ako dun sa victim. (xmpre...)
pero...
mabilis kasi ako magulat.
AS IN.
ayoko ng nakakagulat kasi maingay ako magulat e...
pero, actually...
maingay ako manood..
puro comments and reactions ako pag nanonood ng suspense or horror...
then, after nung movie, nagkita-kita kami nila laiza..
ang adeek nga e..
pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao kasi ba naman....
kinukuhaan nila ng picture ung mga mannequins dun...
at si mark, aba naman...
NAGPOPOSE PA....
ankyoot nga e,,,
hehehe,,,,
center of attention pero cool....
heehee...
then, aun...
i have to be home by 5:30... eh napansin ko ung oras, mga 5:20 na...
pasaway tlgang bata ako...
kaya ayun...
eh si anne, sinundo na din xa ni tita prescy sa mega...
so aun, kami nila rommel at marjohn, uwi na kami...
si marlon kasi ayaw pa niya umuwi eh...
mas mabilis pala umuwi pag libertad ang sasakyan na jeep...
kanina co lan nalaman yun e...
dami nga lan kailangang daanan na mga twists and turns bago makadating dun sa pilahan ng mga libertad na jeep..
galing ni rommel... parang tourguide lan e... hehe..
till here...
Y Y Y
to my propphi...
Sunday, March 25, 2007
propphi, i am always thankful for you... hehe...
anata wa watashi no hontou no tomodachi...
arigatou... kimi ga iru...
ja ne!
Y Y Y
few thoughts...
hmm... few thoughts??? hmmm.... ung mga thoughts and opinions ko about a certain keratin-filled creature, naubos na ata dun sa entry co before this...
keratin-filled?
manhid ksi eh...
mxado atang dumami ung keratin nya sa balat...
hindi na tuloy xa aware sa external surroundings nia..
tsktsk...
"is it death that you crave?"
hainaku... hndi literally death... social death... moral death... ung mga gnun...
nakakasawa naman... hehe...
hmm... ang ganda ni boA... sya ung korean na singer... na mgaling din kumanta ng japanese...
galing niya.
siya ung kumanta ng "Every Heart" from Inuyasha..
hehe...
galing.
tapos ang ganda pa niya.
idol.
aww... ankyoot ni akanishi jin...
heehee.
aww...
jin-chan wa kawaii!!
hehe...
adeekmode nnman...
senxa...
pero kyoooooooot lan tlga xa... heehee...
ja ne!
Y Y Y
stupid... stupid...
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Ugh... separate itong entry na ito dun s entry co na puro english.. naman ksi... may isang epal na tao sa pinanganak na mundo na hindi marunong umunawa ng tama sa mali... stupid nga naman ang title nitong entry na ito... i know that he wouldn't be able to read this.. and i don't care... sabi nga ni maam.. ang gusto lan daw tlga nia ay LAYUAN NAMIN SIYA... oo nga naman... tama lan tlgang layuan xa... ndi nman xa NAKAKAPAGPAGANDA NG BUHAI EH... actually.. panira xa ng buhai.. akala ko p man din nagbago n xa.. kht papano dba? wala pala... akala lan pla yun... oo nga naman. walang tamang akala... lahat mali... nye..naiinis ako sa taong ito... dati.. nung first year... nung second year... pero kasi nitong third year akala ko talaga nagbago na xa... ASA NAMAN PALA AKO... hainaku...
oo nga,, assessment yung pinagawa... HINDI DIARY.. ainaku... hindi mo b alam ung kaibahan nun??? stupid, stupid you....
"assessment is the evaluation of something based on what you understand about the situation..."
based on Encarta Encyclopedia..
Now, think about this... what you wrote on that assessment of yours.. IS THAT AN ASSESSMENT??
you hadn't evaluated the subject and the teacher... you just wrote what you FELT about it... self assessment? nope... nagyabang ka lang e... nasaan ung assessment dun?? ang kayabangan at self-assessment, NEVER NAGING SYNONYMOUS... akala ko ba high ang IQ mo?? nsaan ang IQ dian ngaun? ainaku... magyabang ka kung may karapatan ka ha... hindi yung magyayabang ka, e wala naman sa lugar... at isa pa, excuse me ha... pero yung IQ test na kinuha mo, sa internet lan kaya yun! puro abstract reasoning lan kaya yun... magyabang ka kung ung IQ test na kinuha mo, talagang galing at gawa ng isang professional psychologist... and in any way, IF EVER makakuha ka man tlga ng mataas na iq score sa isang iq test na prepared ng isang totoong psychologist...
YOU STILL DON'T HAVE THE RIGHT TO BRAG ABOUT IT..
why?
kasi, there are more than two billion people in this world.. and in that two billion, merong mga taong may MAS MATATAAS NA IQ SCORE KAYSA SAYO...
at isa pa, hindi halatang mataas ung iq mo... alam mo ksi, intelligence is not only measured by grades... it is also measured on how you act when certain things go wrong.. it is how you communicate with other people in a way that can be pleasant to both parties involved... it is how you see things on your own perspective, regardless of the opinions of others...
hindi lang porket mataas ka sa isang subject, masasabi mo ng MATALINO ka... hindi porket highest ka sa isang exam, MAGALING ka na...
kung yan yung paniniwala mo, sorry to burst your bubble pero...
THAT IS OH-SO WRONG...
isa pa, hindi mo man lang ba naisip (bago mo cnulat lahat ng bagay na yun dun sa assessment mo..) na babasahin yun ni maam... at xmpre... hindi mo man lang ba naisip na MAGFFOURTHYEAR KA PA SA CMSHS????
akala ko ba mataas IQ score mo... 130???? ows..? hindi halata...
ano tingin mo sa sarili mo, diyos na pdeng makabastos na lang ng kht cno? gamitin mo nga yang utak mo... lahat ng tao, biniyayaan ng utak para gamitin sa pagiisip ng tamang desisyon...
ano tingin mo sa srili mo, napakagaling na dhil lang dian s IQ test sa internet??? ainaku.... so anu yun, naniniwala ka na mas mataas IQ mo kaysa kay ****** ????? stupid, dear....
wag kang magyayabang, pare... may mga taong mas magaling pa kaysa sayo...
ayaw mo ng science...??? now, that's what i really call STUPIDITY...
plain and unadorned.
stupidity.
tsktsk...
pumasok ka sa science highschool pero you hate science??? nasaan ang logic???? grabe ha.. and here i am, thinking of what you wrote "mataas ang Iq ko.."
hahaha...
nasaan dian ang mataas ang iq???
soree, hindi ko makita...
at hindi rin nakikita ng LAHAT NG TEACHERS NG CMSHS.....
so, ibabalik ko sayo yung tanong...
inborn na ba tlga sayo ung pgiging hideous, boastful monster who knows nothng but to compare itself to people??
inborn ba tlga?
shoots...
si maam, hindi xa masama... oo nakakatakot xa nung una because of her reputation... nakasama ko xa dati sa UP... kaya alam ko na mabait xa sa labas ng klase... pero i still feared her kasi nga ang alam ko, mataray xa sa loob ng room... and then, as time goes by, narealzie ko din na nasa lugar yung pagiging mataray nia... hindi xa pdeng mging mabait dhil pag gnawa nia un, the students will just take advantage of her... and that's not what she wants...
nagagalit xa at nagpapahiya ng students dahil gusto nya na mag-aral sila ng mabuti.. para hndi na mapahiya at mapagalitan ulit...
reverse psychology.
nkakainis ka... pinaiyak mo si maam... akala mo naman kung sino kang napakaganda ng physical appearance para manlait ng physical appearance ng ibang tao...
destructive criticisms yung lumalabas sa bibig mo e...
nakakasira lan.
walang magandang naidudulot.
black-listed ka na sa buong faculty ngaun... sa buong 4thyear... sa mga 3rdyear... sa buong cmshs... sa lahat ng kakilala ni maam sa lahat ng universities...
what are you going to do?
naaawa ako sayo pero it's all your fault.. hindi mo ginagamit yang brain na binigay sayo... impulsive ka mxado... hindi ka muna nagiisip...
ewan ko sayo....
lakas pa ng loob mo para magtanong ng harapan kay maam kung inborn ba tlga yung pagiging monster nia...
tatag mo ha... wala ba tlga sa vocabulary mo yung salitang "HIYA"?? tsk... kaawa-awang nilalang... hindi marunong mahiya... hindi marunong maging sensitive... kahit man lan onti...
ngaun, kung magagalit ka sa mga taong naiinis sayo... ibig sabihin, mgagalit ka s npakadaming tao... tsk... naman...
if ever mabasa mo nga ito, alam ko nakasakit ako ng damdamin... damdamin mo... hindi ako magsosorry sayo.. at wala akong balak magsorry... dhil ang sorry, sinasabi lang kapag may ginawa kang kasalanan sa isang tao at mangangako kang hindi mo na uulitin... ang sorry sinasabi lan kapag gusto mong patawarin ka ng taong nagawan mo ng ksalanan...
kasalanan ba yung pgpopost ng ganto sa blog? o cge... mkakasakit ako ng dmdamin pag nbasa mo ito,, fine.. ksalanan nga... pero hindi ako mgsosorry dhil wala akong pkialam kung mgalit ka man... dahil para sakin (at sa lahat ng nkabasa ng assessment mo) ikaw yung mali...
till here!!
Y Y Y
Soar to the frozen sky
"Do not lose hope.. for Hope has wings so wide... that would let you soar to the frozen sky... no matter how cold the world could be... Hope will give you the strength to fly... so hold on and be strong... be brave at heart and fight for the things that you care for... and if ever the time comes that you have to let go... do not be afraid of doing so... the cliff may seem to be dark and endless... but remember that one of two things might happen... either someone will catch you and break your fall... or your wings would be able to let you fly... and if ever the latter would be the one that would happen... always keep in mind that your wings are always there... ready to spread itself in times of need... Hope has wings... and it will surely let you fly... you just have to believe in it..."
kulit... heehee... adeek aco.. msaya ang araw kht boring... at mainit.. at nakkaantok... hehehe.. sa lunes na pla ung recognition... nku,, then bakasyon na.. ayoko png mgbkasyon... nkakamiss din yng skul n yan.. heehee.. pti na rin ung mga tao dian s skul n yan... *wide grin* hehehe... hmm.. ansaya.. top3 aco.. weee... then s lunes after ng recognition, ppnta kmi s mega.. mnnood ng movie,. heehee.. grbe nga e, dmi cong nainvyt na klasm8.. as if nman ililibre co cla.. haha.. kanya-kanyang bayad toh mga tol! heehee... eh ksi anlakas pla ng boses ko nung kinakausp co cla ederlyn.. aun.. then, before i knew it, andami co ng nsabihan pla n qng gusto nla sumama s monday, go ahead.,, THE MORE THE MERRIER naman dbuh? heehee.. saya.. then.. aun.. bsta..
"Love the one who's willing to wait.. because a person who truly loves.. is definitely willing to wait for the one he loves.. and in that way.. sincerity and loyalty would be demonstrated... suffice to say, that one who is willing to wait... is a man of integrity and chaste love.."
"friends don't always have to get along... they just have to understand.."
"no guy is worth a girl's tears.. the only one who's worth her tears is the one who knwos that he can make her cry, but would not even dare to try..."
"hold fast to dreams for if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly... do not be afraid to dream... but also, do not be afraid to make your dreams come true.. a dream cannot be a substitute for the happiness that you will have once that dream is achieved... false dream, true dream.. neither one.. you must just have the strength to fight for it.. and make them all come true... no matter what..."
"Innocence is bliss... sometimes.. it is the best defense that one can use.. just like a smile.. oftentimes.. a smile is used as a mask.. a cover-up for the pain and the grief.. a mechanism to hide the sadness... because it has always been easier to hide your pains than to receive the pity of others... it has always been easier to smile though your heart is breaking... it has always been easier to act happy even if you feel like shattering... innocence is bliss... the best defense mechanism ever..."
"a smile doesn't always means happiness... a tear doesn't always means sadness.. people hide their true feelings.. maybe for defense.. maybe just for the sake of hiding it.. maybe for the sake of their loved ones... maybe for their own sake.. nonetheless, truth be told, what you see is NOT ALWAYS what you get..."
Till here... currently hunting anime pix... again and again.. heehee..
Y Y Y
one thousand cherry blossoms
Friday, March 23, 2007
hmmm... anu bng mssbi co naun? eto.. tpos na ang pghhrap.. la ng ggwin... saya naman... nglinis kmi ng room knna.. ansaya pumatong-patong s mga desks s room pra maabot ung mduming upper part ng wall.. heehee... saya ding tumalon mula s kinaaapakang backrest ng chair after ng malinisan ung particular area ng wall.. hehe... kaya nga lan, nkapalda aco kaya ndi mejo swift ung pgkilos.. aba nman xmpre.. heehee...
kaantok ung araw knna... tpos ang init2 pa... nku nman... katuwa.. ambait ni marlon.. pinahiram nia ung bag nia skn.. tpos un ung hinigaan ko... heehee.. bait2... hehehe...
hmm... goal co naun.. punuin ng anime pix ang isa s mga divisions ng harddrive co.. 40gb din un.. pupunuin din kta.. haha...
yo.. heehee... kulit co nnman... adeekmode lan... la lan.. hehehehe... ayoko pang mgbakasyon.. kht ganyan yang skul.. pinapahirapan ako lgi.. nkakamiss pdn yan.. hehe.. xmpre nman.. nkakamiss pdn tlga.. hai.. heehee..
cge... cge... till here muna... mwah!
Y Y Y
Monday, March 19, 2007
hmmmm.... ganda ng kowt... kakagising co lan... panu b nman ksi, 3am na aco ntulog... heehee.. anime movie marathon p ksi.. psaway na bata,., tpos ngaun magkcram nnman... haha... dakilang matatag tlga... hmm.. cge2 till here muna.. maya nlng ulit.. gotta do skulworx.. kht nkakatamad tlga.. hai... auq png magbakaxon pero auq ng magaral... heehee..
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Sunday, March 18, 2007
asteeg nang pic... it's all bloody... may naiisip nnman akong new story about this pic,... bwahahaha... =D adeek n nga aco... tgal co ng alam.. heehee.. ganda sna nung gurl s pic.. keia lan,.. well... hehehehe...
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hmm... ang ganda ng photo na ito... la lan... just wanna share.. heehee.. aun.. 8hours na akong onlyn.. tatag co tlga kht kelan.. haha...
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center of my heart
hmmmm,, eto.. malapit nang mag5hours na online.. adeek eh... tinatamad p ako gmawa ng mga requirements,, asus! heehee... kgabi, i mean, kninang mdaling araw 1:30 na ako ntulog... nagmovie marathon oa ako mag-isa eh.. tatag co.. magisa d2 s baba pero ndi ako ntatakot.. ndi nman kasi ako mtatakutin pag magisa, as long as ndi madilim at ndi tahimik... aion lan...
kagabi ansaya ng buhai co... bonding kmi nila propphi anne, itay, at nory.. aion.. heehee... saya... heehee...
hmm... c rommel, nagkasakit... xado ksi kinacareer ang pag-aaral e..
hmm... bsta alam co kgabi ng mga 7:30, bago sinundo c propphi dito s haus, bgla akong prang nakatake ng drugs... haha... weee...!!
broadband n kmi kya pde ng mag-internet ng todo... =D hehe...
hmm...
tama c propphi... ung mga sabat ng sabat dian.. paepal kau mxado... ndi nman kau ung pinapatamaan, react ng react,... prng tanga lan ah... kung ndi guilty, ndi magrereact.. asus nman... gmitin nman ang utak, kht mnsan,,, sus... (oh, wlang magrereact,,, hndi kau pinapatamaan co..)
hmmm... auq pang magbakasyon, epro auq nang mag-aral... heehee... gusto co pumasok ng skul pero ayokong may teachers,, haha... adeek!! asa nman aco dbuh? heehee...
"hold my hand and we'll make it through.."
sound3pping.. kain.. nood... saya ng buhai batugan.. haha... pero bukas cgurado, cramming time co nnman... mmya nga ttpusin co na ung project ko s english pra wala ng iisipin p tungkol dun... asus...
saya nman... tapos na periodical.. heehee... pero ayoko pa tlga magbakasyon eh... nman... mamimiss co mga klasm8s and frends... mas msaya pag madami eh.. heehee..
"live life to the fullest.. don't take grudges against people... shed tears.. laugh a lot... love a lot.. be alive.."
tama2... life would be meaningless if you would just keep on wallowing the pains of the past,,, remember that the past may hurt so much but that doesn't mean that you have to keep it alive.. past is past... live with it.. don't regret your decisions... don't regret the things that happened to you... because in the end, you'll know that there are reasons for that matter... reasons that you're not able to see, yet... reasons that would make your life worthwhile...
may mga taong nagttanong kung bakit klangang mging malungkot s buhai na ito... oo nga, pdeng maging simple ang buhai... laging msaia.. laging puro tuwa,. pero, mlalaman b ntin ang tunay na kahulugan ng kasiyahan kung hndi ntin masusubukan ang kalungkutan?
"the sadness can make the happiness more true.."
oo, life is complicated... it was made to be intricate that way... a lot of people wants life to be simpler..
i totally disagree.
life is made to be intricate,,. complicated... just like everything else that is worthy in this world... if life is simpler... it would be a lot less magical...
hmm... nagiging random na ung entry co.. aus lan... blog co nman toh eh...
bkit keia may ibang tao na ngmamadali magkaroon ng lovelife? gusto nila pag nanligaw sila, sasagutin din cla.. e ndi nman pde yun eh.. kasi, kya k nga nanliligaw, para patunayan na karapatdapat ka... i wonder lan tlga kung bkit may ibng tao na nagmamadali... sbi nga ng mama co "lahat ng tao, may nakalaan para sa kanila... kahit gaano pa katagal ang paghihintay... kung sila ung para sa isa't isa, magiging sila padin s huli.."
it's not a matter of when...
true love waits... dadating din yan... and LOVE is not synonymous to COMMITMENT... therefore, it doesn't matter if your in a relationship or not.. what matters is what is inside your heart... (nice nman... san ko nakukuha yan??)
just enjoy life... till here...
kagabi ansaya ng buhai co... bonding kmi nila propphi anne, itay, at nory.. aion.. heehee... saya... heehee...
hmm... c rommel, nagkasakit... xado ksi kinacareer ang pag-aaral e..
hmm... bsta alam co kgabi ng mga 7:30, bago sinundo c propphi dito s haus, bgla akong prang nakatake ng drugs... haha... weee...!!
broadband n kmi kya pde ng mag-internet ng todo... =D hehe...
hmm...
tama c propphi... ung mga sabat ng sabat dian.. paepal kau mxado... ndi nman kau ung pinapatamaan, react ng react,... prng tanga lan ah... kung ndi guilty, ndi magrereact.. asus nman... gmitin nman ang utak, kht mnsan,,, sus... (oh, wlang magrereact,,, hndi kau pinapatamaan co..)
hmmm... auq pang magbakasyon, epro auq nang mag-aral... heehee... gusto co pumasok ng skul pero ayokong may teachers,, haha... adeek!! asa nman aco dbuh? heehee...
"hold my hand and we'll make it through.."
sound3pping.. kain.. nood... saya ng buhai batugan.. haha... pero bukas cgurado, cramming time co nnman... mmya nga ttpusin co na ung project ko s english pra wala ng iisipin p tungkol dun... asus...
saya nman... tapos na periodical.. heehee... pero ayoko pa tlga magbakasyon eh... nman... mamimiss co mga klasm8s and frends... mas msaya pag madami eh.. heehee..
"live life to the fullest.. don't take grudges against people... shed tears.. laugh a lot... love a lot.. be alive.."
tama2... life would be meaningless if you would just keep on wallowing the pains of the past,,, remember that the past may hurt so much but that doesn't mean that you have to keep it alive.. past is past... live with it.. don't regret your decisions... don't regret the things that happened to you... because in the end, you'll know that there are reasons for that matter... reasons that you're not able to see, yet... reasons that would make your life worthwhile...
may mga taong nagttanong kung bakit klangang mging malungkot s buhai na ito... oo nga, pdeng maging simple ang buhai... laging msaia.. laging puro tuwa,. pero, mlalaman b ntin ang tunay na kahulugan ng kasiyahan kung hndi ntin masusubukan ang kalungkutan?
"the sadness can make the happiness more true.."
oo, life is complicated... it was made to be intricate that way... a lot of people wants life to be simpler..
i totally disagree.
life is made to be intricate,,. complicated... just like everything else that is worthy in this world... if life is simpler... it would be a lot less magical...
hmm... nagiging random na ung entry co.. aus lan... blog co nman toh eh...
bkit keia may ibang tao na ngmamadali magkaroon ng lovelife? gusto nila pag nanligaw sila, sasagutin din cla.. e ndi nman pde yun eh.. kasi, kya k nga nanliligaw, para patunayan na karapatdapat ka... i wonder lan tlga kung bkit may ibng tao na nagmamadali... sbi nga ng mama co "lahat ng tao, may nakalaan para sa kanila... kahit gaano pa katagal ang paghihintay... kung sila ung para sa isa't isa, magiging sila padin s huli.."
it's not a matter of when...
true love waits... dadating din yan... and LOVE is not synonymous to COMMITMENT... therefore, it doesn't matter if your in a relationship or not.. what matters is what is inside your heart... (nice nman... san ko nakukuha yan??)
just enjoy life... till here...
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