dreamcatcher
Thursday, August 16, 2007
okay. umuulan.
mali pala yung sinabi ko dati.
i actually don't love the rain.
what i love are the raindrops plummeting from the skies.
not the rain itself.
the raindrops.
the act of plummeting of those tiny droplets of water...
it's as if the gods and goddesses are shedding tears.
grabe yung lightning and thunder nung isang araw...
mejo natutulog talaga ako nun tapos nagising ako bgla.
kasi ba naman, super bigay todo yung thunder at lightning nun.
hindi ako magigising sa lightning. pero ung thunder...
what the...
nung una, mejo slightly conscious na ako... half-awake...
habang andyn ako sa state of half-consciousness, merong two words na ngrrun sa mind ko...
"rolling thunder"
kasi, at frst, mahina ung thunder.
anlayo pa..
parang may ginugulong lang na dambuhalang metal ball sa ibabaw ng yero na feeling mo nkalagay sa bubong ng bahay nyo.
yun. exactly.
tapos, bgla nlng...
BOOM!
what the freaking hell..
anlakas nung sumunod na mga thunder... hindi na "rolling thunder" ung description dun e..
para bang may mga entities na currently at war sa bubong nyo...
sabi nga ni propphi anne, parang may naghhaduken sa mga bubong...
nakakagulantang naman kasi.
i literally bolted upright. tapos nakita ko ung lightning. feeling ko katabi ng bintana... wala pang half second, bglang anlakas ng thunder...
unang pumasok sa isip ko yung line sa isang book na nabasa ko.
"...the gods wage their wars..."
oh dba? may mga ngggyera nga sa bubong!
and, the lightning-thunder pair-up was incessant.
continuous.
hataw nga. bigay-todo...
speaking of lightning-thunder...
i've read somewhere, sometime ago, that thunder always comes after a lightning.
without lightning, there'd be no thunder.
and it's also impossible for lightning to exist without thunder.
in a way, they are inseparable.
la lng...
naaaliw ako sa lightning at thunder. oo nakakagulat ung thunder.
so bakit ako naaaliw? oh well... first, si ginji ng getbackers, ang aking most adorable and huggable and kissable and *insert synonyms here*, ay si Raitei.
translated literally as Thunder Emperor.
aun.
next, kasi nga inseparable ung lightning at thunder.
oo, law of nature nga na inseparable cla pero dba it's nice to know that even nature agrees that some things are really inseparable...
aun. ang cute lng na nauuna lagi tlga ung lightning before the thunder.
oo, scientifically, oo nga. kasi nga dba light travels faster than sound kaya malamang tlagang mauuna palagi ang lightning kysa thunder.
next reason, super unimaginable yung energy ng lightning!
nang lightning ha.. hindi thunder.
ang thunder kasi, prang by-product lng ng lightning.
"...a lightning charge contains 30 million volts at 100,000 ampere..."
imagine that. THIRTY FREAKING MILLION VOLTS... and A HUNDRED THOUSAND FREAKING AMPERE...
super large voltage.. super large current..
if lightning strikes you, oh hell... you're toast.
literally.
oh well... let's set aside lightning and thunder for now.
ang title nitong entry na ito ay "dreamcatcher"...
that's the tile of my favorite stephen king book. i've read stephen king's insomniac but still, i'm really so fond of his dreamcatcher book...
he wrote it after his accident. and he wrote the first draft of the book on a notebook using his Waterman fountain pen. he called the pen "the world's greatest word processor".
okay then. dreamcatcher is about four men who were friends since their boyhood days...
boyhood days, by that i mean that they're already friends since they were about twelve...
and the friendship lasted until they were in their late thirties..
and if the Beaver and Pete hadn't died, the four men's friendship would have lasted longer...
anyway, their friendship lasted a lifetime. because they were friends till the end.
they have this sort of motto or whatever in their group...
SSDD.
stands for SAME SHIT DIFFERENT DAY.
it doesn't actually have any meaning. they just love to say that. when things goes awry, they will just say SSDD.
there's another motto of this spectacular friends...
"NO BOUNCE, NO PLAY"
again, no particular meaning.
they got this phrase at the park when they were still twelve-year-olds... at the park where they rescued a retarded boy [unbeknownst to them, that retarded boy will change their lives in both good and bad ways that they can't even begin to describe]
in reality, "no bounce no play" means that no one is supposed to play ball in that park...
but to the four, "no bounce no play" has been a sort of their life motto..
in the book, while Pete was being tortured, Jonesy said "Pete, no bounce no play, right?"
then, Pete, as tired and hurt as he was smiled and said "Yeah. No play."
pero sa book, sila na din mismo yung nagsabi na walang meaning talaga yung phrase...
might be "what the hell" or might be "oh f**k that" or might be anything...
pero naging parang lifeline nilang apat yan...
then, there's this scene when Beaver was dying because of that horrendous weasel-like creature...
tapos dumating si Jonesy sa bathroom kung saan namamatay na halos si Beaver.
sbi ni beaver "Run, Jonesy."
madami pa dapat yang ssbhin nya pero hndi na nya kinaya.. pero sa book kasi nga dba nababasa yung iniisip ng tao...
eto yung line ni beaver... eto ung last thoughts nya...
"...lock it in. lock both of us in. burn it. burn it alive. i'm going to sit here ass-deep in this f*cking toilet with my arms wrapped around it, and if i can die smelling it roast, i can die happy..."
oh shux.
ewan... pero naiyak ako dyan.
napapaiyak ako ng mga books na merong sacrifice...
aynaco...
anyway...
meron kasing tao na nagsabi skn dati na hindi na daw nya bestfriend ung dati nyang bestfriend.
xmpre tnanong ko kung bakit.
sbi nya kasi naman daw hindi na daw sya tnatawagan. hindi daw nagpaparamdam. such stuffs...
uminit tuloy ulo ko.
ganun lang ba kabilis magpalit ng bestfriends??
just because of a few months of lack of communication, you're actually going to replace your bestfriend??
WHAT THE FREAKING BLOODY AND FREEZING HELL...?
okay.
that only proves one thing.
there are some people who still don't know the meaning of friendship and bestfriends and friends,,,
para bng there's this sudden urge to scream obscenities dun sa taong un...
so immature. hindi man lang intindihin yung so-called former bestfriend nya.
malay mo may problema...
besides, everyone knows about that so-called former bestfriend's predicament.
eto pa un e. kht mnsan ba ngtry syang tawagan ung so-called bestfriend nya?
ngtry ba xang icontact un?
tsk...
hindi naman ibg sbhn ng bestfriend ay everyday chitchat a...
friendship is the connection of hearts.
and a bestfriend is a twin that the heaven forgot to gave us...
bestfriends are twin souls separated at conception...
not just because hindi na xa nagpaparamdam meaning you're not bestfriends anymore..
parang bata naman. immature thinking un..
para bang pag ayaw nya makipaglaro sayo ngayon kasi masama pakiramdam nya sasabihin mo na agad na "hindi na tayo bati!"
what the...
super immature mode? aba naman...
so now i know the reason why that person doesn't have a best pal...
tsk...
unlucky you.
a dreamcather is supposed to filter a person's dreams... only the good dreams ar allowed to pass through, and the bad dreams are trapped on the web of the dreamcatcher, disappearing with the light of the day...
but, i beg to differ.
dreams are fashioned from one's own consciousness...
be it a good dream or a bad dream... a dream is still a dream.
your dreams reveal your subconscious self.
and nothing can filter the subconscious mind but the mind itself.
till here, then.
oyasumi!
10:55 PM
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